you stole my heart

Thursday, October 12, 2006

IVE MOVED.

for the better maybe. heeeh c",)

THE NEW PLACE TO RANT. THE NEW PLACE WHERE I CAMWHORED. THE NEW PLACE WHERE THINGS ARE MUCH BETTER. CLICK TO JOIN IN THE FUN.

Love,
FFY

Monday, September 04, 2006

i thought that particular someone was involved in an accident till i didn't even receive a reply on Saturday night and Sunday itself or i thought an unfortunate event had happened. i was worried sick. i was paranoid. i hate to be kept in suspence. every tick of the watch i waited for the incoming reply was in vain. cos this evening, with my own 2 eyes, that person was still in 1 piece, alive and kicking. i was unsure of what to feel. to think that my mind ran wild for no reason yesterday and tt i was very much looking forward to the plan. whatever the reason was, i took it as my retribution. everything had been said and done.

to that person, if you're reading this, GAME OVER. and you have WON. CONGRATULATIONS :-). and come to think of it, if i am to be calculative, the money spent on would be enough to buy the pakcik a GILERA (which ive always craved for) and a PSP for our birthdaes, and a shopping spree for me and the girls to pamper ourselves. tsk tsk. i shall take a chill pill for now.

:: ffy 07:20pm ::

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

its the holiday. and so is tomorrow. at least. this week's kindda slack. with only 2 days of work. after which, no more of hibernating. till the september holiday.

too much to blog, too many outing pictures to upload. but toooo little time. excuses ain't it. yet im mtg the pakcik and the gfs la8. dinner at Bugis and ZOUK out. how happening it is when its the day off tomorrow. and im paying off the debts for months of not clubbing. its MAMBO JUMBO tonight people.

till then. when time permits. and ive yet to prepare for Friday's lesson. GREAT.

:: ffy 0530pm ::

Saturday, July 29, 2006

what am i doing at 10+pm at home on a Saturday when i should be out of the shell and let the horns out? decided to spend the day with the mum shopping at IKEA; where she shopped and i paid for the items.

this will be the longest entry ever as this blog had been collecting dust day by day. simply because the owner is toooo freaking lazy and busy with work and keeping late nights rendezvous-ing on every of her weekends. somehow or rather she just need to find thousand and one excuses to destress on her fridays and saturdays. A MUST. its always been suppers and late night movies with either the pakcik or the gf for the past 1 month.

work's been driving me nuts till i couldn't get a grip of myself. luckily, fortunately, thankfully, blissfully, the dearest mummy monster was my support pillow. my shoulder to cry on. and she would even wake up every morning at 5+ am just to prepare my breakfast and lunch box before sending me off to the door for work. she had seen the downside of me and it was her magical hug and comfort that soothed the situation. she's one amazing woman despite the strict and disciplined way she brought me up which i once loathed. she's one in a million mum. despite the fact that she lacks what other mums have. life will be unimaginable without her, even for now. she's the reason why im still holding on strong and be patient with the demand of my work. it's hard to believe how i was once a rebel back then and despised my way of life with her controlling my freedom. yet now, she's my friend, my confidante, my gossip and joke kaki, my shopping and eating mate, my everyting. not even the pakcik can replace the dearest mummy monster who took care of me painstakingly. this mummy monster had the cheek to also bring up the subject of returning to the workforce with the reason that she wanted to chip in and at least help in 1 way or another for my wedding. which truly startled me and obviously i objected to her decision.

as a thank you to the beloved mummy monster, for the month of July, with extra cash in hand, i brought her out for retail therapy and eating sessions though ive to forsake some of my priorities. ive spent way tooooo much for myself and her. shopped for our clothes, home necessities at IKEA and her EVER big ticket item from me is a $648 sofa set, which will be arriving this Monday. im sooooo excited and i hope she will too. and as for me, ive decided to pamper myself with this $215 PUMA watch (which was the 3rd watch ive eyed after much decision) to add to my watch collection. mummy monster and the pakcik had nothing much to say except shaking their heads with the 'you-should-have-used-the-bucks-for-other-things-instead' looks when i told them of my biggest purchase for the month.

that pinky, blinky PUMA watch

my daily needs. at times. and i need more. with the fact that ive lost and broken some.

yes, apart from being a shoeholic and accessories addict just like the mum, ive decided to stock up my watch collection as well. this is pure irresistable, i must say. on another note, i shall not forget the PSP and that 3G phone either. my ipod and sony dgcam need new playing mates. that should be all for now to content me. to liven my hectic working schedule. mum and him will be horrified because i should be saving up and not splurging. sheeeshhhh. just this once. im just itching to shop.

and those overdue pictures:

Convocation, 12th July 2006

Dinner and Supper, 22nd July 2006

so what's next? stay tune.

:: ffy 10:30pm ::

Saturday, June 24, 2006

i shouldn't be feeling shitty-fied on a Saturday. bloody hell.

Before

After

Whenever i shortened the length of the hair, i always feel regret and upset. i should have not done it in a moment of anger..but the head feels much lighter for now. there will be no more cutting.. no more heart attacks for me, mum and the others. i MISS my long tresses. :-(

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

tooooo L A Z Y to update. been enjoying the looonnng holiday. sampai naik lemak. eating, sleeping, waking up late, gallivanting. sooo carefree. what's new. the hol's coming to an end. but am yet ready to start work. M A L A S ok. but no work = no pay = no savings = no shopping = no eating = no etc. in short nothing.

let's cut it short and enjoy some eye candies.

sheesha.lepak session at Kaki 5

sakae session

the TP/NIE classmate's engagement

toodles.
(CLICK PICTURES TO VIEW MORE)

:: ffy 05:20pm ::

Saturday, June 10, 2006

maybe for once now i should stop thinking of others before me. just this once i will try. all along, ive cared MORE for others and i expect that they will at least recipocrate just a LIL. maybe ive asked too much. i guess noone elso knows me well except YOU. because of YOU i stand strong till now. somehow or rather your presence made a difference in my life. YOU have never belittled me. YOU pulled me up each time i fall. i wonder if ive made the right choice. or was it a harsh decision? ive decided to lay low for some time. i shall not let my heart rules my head for now. ive done enough.

im just a nobody after what ive done all this while and gone through. things have been said of me yet i endured. but heck. who cares right.

IM UNPRECITABLE but i still heart you.

:: ffy 02:01am ::

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