you stole my heart

Monday, June 30, 2003

MNG been keeping me away from mr bloggy. how saddening. i miss u ppl. yeahh!! been 10 days im away and ive been suprised by new skins from bloggers. woahhh tts utterly superb. yum yum. i missed my 8.35am pract for i was too sleepy and tired to drag myself to the bathroom and get ready. i had to forgo the pract and my bucks is burnt. school reopening next wk and ive got at least a wk to rest and complete all unfinished wk and plans. not sure if i shld meet Dee la8 after his wk to get my 6610. yeahh ive decided to trade in my 6510 to tt MMS ph and give the line to him just for the free incoming call. hes chipping in at least half of the price, though i nvr ask or said anyting. wking at MNG was awesome wif great 'kakis'. long wking hrs but with them ard it doesnt seem to be. i shall not elaborate on the job further. i shall catch up with the lost of hrs on my sleep soon. i dont wanna be a panda on the run. ewwww. till den. sayonara.

i shall reply my tags here, in alphabetical order hehe.

-acidworm: im not from Bukit view but mr Dee was.

-anna: i miss u too, esp ur swt smile.

-azalia: aza, i was not in a gd shape but now i m. wk drained me out.

-azarini: howdy rin. skul reopening soon. shucks.

-diah: alohaaa. how have u been?

-duckie: wer have u been? y ur blog is closed? grrrrr. i miss ya. wen wanna go for a duck ride?

-ery aka twinny: hu ask u not to approach me. menyesal tak sudah kan. ishkk. u shld have ok. im here but a day late.

-fury: cV memek, which day u saw me in tt top with tt hair style. hehe. i must have looked awful.

-nurul: gonna miss u too and drop by here more often though u'll not be blogging. this song thus unbreak my heart. : (

-pweety: wick, y didnt u ask me along for a trip there? we can have a honey-moon. hehe.

-shawty: babeyyyy...wer art thou? shop till us drop. rindu sama awak ah.

-shidah: i love ur site. its truly incredible hulk. huhu. sweet couple with sw
eet sites.

-trina: wk had been taking most of my time away from everything. esp. my chinese shows. uwahhh. *hugs*

and wers my SHADES aka my imsoniac buddy? and the rest of u ppl of the world?

:: ffy 12:18pm ::

Friday, June 20, 2003

wk ended early today, i.e at 6pm. ohh yahh to those who intended to drop by at MANGO today, so sorry to inform you tt the whole MANGO outlets are closed due to preparation for the sale tomorrow. and i'll be at the shop to handle customers too once the sale start w.e.f tomorrow.ewwwwww.

on the way hm, in the mrt, i was disgusted by 3 malay gals for which i can guess by their dressing and looks tt they're just secondary school kiddies. their attitude simply irked me but i just couldnt be bothered by tt. at such age, so cheeky one thing, but i just couldnt stand when one of them was shouting across her seat to one of those boys (i didnt notice who the boys were till they drop at AMK) and kept yelling 'ehhh u kiut ah. u mmg kiut'. which simply means, 'eh u are so cute ah. u are definitely cute'. i was like huh??? what was she trying to prove in an mrt, for goodness sake. a group of guys, not those boys, were also puzzled with her actions. such a disgrace. and when the boys alighted at AMK, she turned back to smile and wave at them, but haha, i noticed they didnt even responded to her 'as if ure pretty and worth it' actions. my gawd, my mum looks thousand times prettier than her. shes terribly skinny, i didnt mean to critise her badly but then its the fact. im sorrie if it hurts u ppl for me having bad opinins of others. i just dont know what's becoming of this Y-generation kids (not all alright). back then during my days, i could see tt our generation was not as such as now. *sigh*. it does disgrace our malay society. pardon me for this.

off to bed now, long hrs again for the next 8 days. from 8.30am-10.30pm. if ure me, for sure u'll hate this wk style to the core tts full of shit and nothing but shit. haha. i shall just bear with it till the pays get in. dum dee dum.

:: ffy 11:04pm ::

im hm at 12am and to find tt its already Friday. damn it siak. i miss my chinese shows and esp. blogging. ewwwww. all i need now is a gd massage. my backache is acting on me again for sitting too long. the day had been hectic and the plc was chaotic with the staffs to and fro in the storerm making it slow for me to complete the job. but luckily i was behind the curtain, simply to say i was in the storerm, price tagging de gds. i cant be bothered to entertain customers. i just hope not for the rest of the 10days. ok here's the new.Mango Having de season sale on sat onwards, for a mth. being a 'kepo'ter, i manage to rumage thru half of the storerm to find loads of irresistable tops, pants, jeans, skirts ... all going for 25% off onwards. haha, tt means only the staffs get to see them first and able to reserve before the customers do. how lucky i am being a part timer. filled my stomach with kaya toast, aunt anne's pretzel and tea for the whole day, fortunately i manage to survive with tt. been trying to lose wt. im starting wk at 8.30 am later, need to clear and display the goods before sat. hope as told, i'll get to knock off at 8.30pm.

btw im gonna be EXTREMELY bz this coming 10 days (inc. ystdae). after which, if any of u guys wanna shop at MANGO, pls do let me tag along can?hehe. i need new clothes too lahh deyy. and to those who likes discounts (who doesnt, *stupid me*) bring me along if u intend to shop there after the season sale, for my aunt is a MANGO staff. i can always chk out which outlet she'll be at and if i can get discounts for u ppl. like it? if dont, pls shoooo.

i shall head to MR Beddy, need a gd, long slp. long hrs again later. i may end up in zoo soon if i have dark rings ard my eyes like Mr Panda, for not having enough sleep. till den my sweet lovely readers.

:: ffy 1:23am ::

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

im starting my wk at MANGO Takashimaya tomorrow and ive to report at 10.30am sharp. tts early. i mean de date, not the reporting time. if u guys are so free and have nothing else to do, ure welcome to drop by and take a peek there. (peek-a-boo). hope this long hr job shall take my mind off from wandering. duckie@Darkness mate gave me 3 days to erase all those unhappiness, hope i'll succeed. if i dont, strangle me duckie. *hugs* u for the lovely chat earlier.

i have to stop being an imsoniac,for this job i dont know how long i have to keep my legs stick to the ground. i have to be on the alert. my food intake has to be cut down too, i think im putting on weight. i should shed some kilograms before school reopens. furthermore, my stomach automatically turns down food after 8pm. if not, i'll be rushing to the loo and stuck on the toilet bowl. its better if i pay back those days which i missed during fasting mth. shall bring it on on friday then.

this is the part where i TERRIBLY need help. any fanatics of chinese shows? i cant REALLY miss the Hongkong show 'Matter of Customs'. ive been an avid chinese shows fan since i was a kiddo. so i'll be glad if anyone can help me to record the show at 9pm from tomorrow onwards on channel U. in return, i shall treat the person to whatever or wherever she/he wants, but must be within my budget definitely. whoever can do me this favour, do tag me but i can only chk it when i get home, which will be very late at night. worse come to worse, u can ask anna for my no. but pls, other intentions shall not be entertained.

save me all those funs for i shall read them tomorrow night when i reached hm from wk.

:: ffy 11:00pm ::

brought to u from my email

Subject: Puisi isteri untuk suami...
Date: Wed, 18 Jun 2003 09:19:17 +0800

Nie dia jawapan untuk si suami yang berhajat nak berbini lagi.....
Aduhai abang .........
makin ku sayang makin kuat kau melayang, abang ingin menikah lagi... menikah lah bang, saya tak kecik ati
Bagus juga kalau begitu tak pening kepala, asyik layan abang selalu
Lagipun bang, Pah tak kuasa nak cemburu
Pergilah abang sayang, Pah rela di madu
Abang nak menikah, itu abang punya suka
Pah tahu abang mampu menikah 2, 3
Malah 4 sekalipun abang berkuasa
Pah pikir balik apa yang abang kata
Yelah... takut nanti syaitan datang menggoda
Nafsu pula tak tertahan adanya
Tambahan sidia yang abang gila
Boleh tahan keSEKSIannya...
Tapi abang jangan sesekali lupa
Pah juga masih POWER...
Meskipun Pah dah beranak Lima
BODY Pah masih bergetah juga
Abang sendiri mengaku, layanan Pah kelassss no 1,
itu sumer gara-gara penangan jamu
Abang pandai cari alasan
Bila di opis jemu & bosan
Tak de Pah disisi untuk melayan
Dulu waktu Pah kerja, abang tak beri
Konon-konon tak suka org lain nengok Pah seksi
Alasannya abang asyik sakit ati
Meskipun waktu itu, Pah abang punya SECRETARY!
Bang, bila rancangan abang nak menikah lagi?
Jangan lupa ingatkan Pah tarikhnya nanti!
Untuk pengetahuan abang sayang,
Sebelum abang berbini baru
Pah dah siapkan list untuk abg GO THROUGH
Ini bukannya apa, hanya persiapan kecil untuk Pah & anak-anak yang mana
perlu
Bang, jangan lupa nafkah anak-anak sorang seribu
Alah, untuk anak-anak kan abang mampu
Pastu kereta Pah, rasanya perlu di tukar baru
At least Merce 3 series, baru kelas gitu
Rumah juga Pah rasa perlu pindah
Pah nak tinggal di Rumah Banglo
yang punya 8 bilik dan taman yang indah
Dan abang sayang, Elaun untuk Pah juga perlu,
Pah rasa RM 5 ribu, lagipun abang mampu
Bukannya apa, duit tu perlu untuk set rambut, mandi lulur, facial dan
penjagaan BODY,
Nanti bolehlah Pah saing dengan bini muda abang sekali
Bang, oh abang sayang
kemana sudah fikiran abang melayang
Ini hanya sebahagian permintaan Pah
Abang pulak jangan cepat melatah
Lagipun abang juga nanti yang dapat nama
Orang kata, sayang bini juga rupanya dia
Lebih-lebih lagi si - bini TUA
Bak kata pepatah : SUSAH SENANG KITA BERSAMA
Bang, Pah lupa kat mana butang baju Melayu di simpan
Takpelah, nanti butang yang bertakhta intan Pah carikan
Barulah cantik dipakai berkilau-kilauan
Berlip-lap-lip-lap di hari pernikahan
Bang, Pah nak beritahu sesuatu
Supaya abang ingat pada Pah selalu
Pah cinta dan sayang abang sampai akhir hayat
Sumpah bang, Pah bukan nak ayat!
Percayalah pada Pah bang, cinta Pah cinta sejati
Abang pun pernah berjanji
Abang kata nak bahagiakan Pah sampai mati
Jadi Pah fikir lagi, sumer tuntutan Pah dari abang REASONABLE Dan Pah meminta secara HUMBLE
So, bang.... jangan lupa yea
Tunaikan dulu segala-galanya
Sebelum hajat abang berbini baru terlaksana...
I Luv U Abang,
Pah.

Artist: Toni Braxton
Song: Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

1-Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
(repeat 1)

Ohh, oh
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
(rpt 1)

Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on

i can only blog if there's a song tt inspires me. in my taskbar is aza's song. though i dont have the slightest idea what's the title but its sooo soothing. its been such sucky days for me almost every day. seems tt ive lost my pillar of strength. if only tt someone (not Dee,definitely) can read this. headaches, headaches and headaches plus depression. when will this ever dissappear into the thin air? (as if its thin,polluted adelah.haha). anna, sorie didnt ans ur call. wanted to tag with you to meet pweet but today's a hell of a day. im beginning to lose my patience (i get a status,i.e a Bitch and a Hypocrite for nothing when tt someone didnt know where my prob lies and its so disheartening). those words came easily from the mouth w/o analysing my point of view and my troubles. Seriously im not talking abt Dee.

:: ffy 3:14pm ::

Listening to: Seperti Dulu - Exist

Fell in love with this song instantly when i caught the video clip on MTV. been listening to it repeatedly on Kazaa for the last 2 days. the tune and lyrics are simply irresistable to my ears.abt the Mango thingey ive yet to confirm where i'll be and if there's a cheap sale goin on. shall update immediately when ive got the info. shall make big bucks while i still can and am counting down the days for the bursary to be banked in on the 29th (too bad its a Sunday).

:: ffy 12:19am ::

Tuesday, June 17, 2003

read this in my email, is this true?

Hi Friends
Pl see.this is true!!
From today onwards, when eating at foodcourts, hawker centres or coffee shops, do not leave your used tissue under plates/bowls or on the table. This act of leaving your used tissue on the table is alsoconsidered as form of littering (according to Chinese papers today).So, to save $200.00 and not to appear in front page of Straits Times, remember to dispose your used tissue in the wastebins

better be safe than sorry

ohh shitty, damn!! uwahhh. bad bad news. a real bad one. goodness gracious me. received a call from dearest aunty telling me tt i may have to start wk this thurs or fri. its too sudden. its supposed to be next wk what. now, all my beautiful, perfect plans have been ruined. ewwwwwww. and my daily routine is affected too.

- no more chinese shows for me
- no outings with whoever they are
- computer usage is cut down (tt means less chatting and less blogging?)
- have to sleep and wake up early
- tuitions have to be cancelled (no tuition pay)
- speed up with the cleaning at hm
- my bike pract on 30th has to be brought forward or cancelled. (troublesome)
- poor lil bro has to be hm alone w/o me till mum gets back

but here are the gd side of it.

- extra bucks (tt means new hp?)
- kills my boredom at hm
- escape from hswk for the meantime
- save electrical and phone bill (since im not at hm)
- tts all? gessszz.

if i noe i wouldnt have agreed to extend a helping hand.
*dumb me*

:: ffy 12:49pm ::

wanted to tag along with Anna to catch Finding Nemo, but forget it. well, he's starting his first day of wk later at 8.30am and what time it gonna ends, search me. im helping out my aunt at MANGO next wk most probably, for 1 wk, which i hope its not gonna be till my last day of holiday (i need rest too). been giving her a hand every Singapore sale period when she was still with FILA then. since both of us are going to be tight down with each of our own commitments i thought we could just spare a lil time together in case we cant meet often, but its just my luck tt ive gotta wait till our calendars are unoccupied.

im still upset over some stuffs which i'd rather save it for myself (wouldnt want to mention it here). im beginning to be back to my old self where i'd prefer not to open up abt the predicamant im facing. what ive gone through back then was one of a hell riding experience. all i need was a listening ear tt clearly understood what my expectations are, it wasnt too much of me to ask was it? yet ive been wronged time and again and the patience in me was running low. now, each day passes with meaningless life. i just want a helping hand extended when i fall, embrace me when im down, not leaving me alone to fend for myself. i hope by reading in between these lines, you'll understand the objective of my words and actions.

:: ffy 12:51am ::

Monday, June 16, 2003

found this while clearing the junkies in my email. Try it

:: ffy 7:54pm ::

Sunday, June 15, 2003

here i am sitting with Snickers bar in my mouth, updating u with my latest post. ystdae been a 'driving me nuts' day for he's sucking my blood still. being an
[e]goistic guy, i shall not spare him at all cos. duhh, he doesnt even realise his own mistakes, yet he pin point mine. Blardy Hell. come on ah. grow up and broaden ur thinking will ya? such a sucky day. shall not elaborate as its so hurting. just dont make me leave u cos of ur own fcuking attitude. u better pray hard tt i wont, if u think im still significant to u. if not, ure welcome to perish from my thoughts and life by all means.

poured my sorrows to Salam, my best friend of 4 yrs. sorry dude for making u crack ur brain just to help me overcome all this. i appreciate tt Very Much. instead of wanting to talk to me happily, he ended up listening to my cries and pains. uve been of a great help and friend to me though we seldom hook up in conversations over the phone nor have time to meet up.

:: ffy 2:57pm ::

Subject: The 90/10 Principal

Discover the 90/10 Principle. It will change your life (at least the way u react to situations) What is this principle? 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react. What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane being late in arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.

How? By your reaction. You cannot control a red light., but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt.You have no control over what just happened. What happens next will be determined by how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 (traffic

fine) away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late,

Because of how you reacted in the morning. Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The answer is D. You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day. Here is what could have and should have happened.

Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You and your spouse kiss before you go to work. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.

Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different. Why? Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction. Here are some says to apply the 90/10 principle.

If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a frind, being fired, getting stressed out etc. How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure rocket? Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work?

Why let the cars ruin your drive? Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it. You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated?

It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job. The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passengers. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse. Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it.

The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle. The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartaches. There never seem to be a success in life.

Bad days follow bad days. Terrible things seem to be constantly happening. There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different! Understand and apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.

Saturday, June 14, 2003

Brain teasers that will make you groan ...

1. A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose between three rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assassins with loaded guns, and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten in 3 years. Which room is safest for him?

2. A woman shoots her husband. Then she holds him under water for over 5 minutes. Finally, she hangs him. But 5 minutes later they both go out together and enjoy a wonderful dinner together. How can this be?

3. There are two plastic jugs filled with water. How could you put all of this water into a barrel, without using the jugs or any dividers, and still tell which water came from which jug?

4. What is black when you buy it, red when you use it, and gray when you throw it away?

5. Can you name three consecutive days without using the words Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday?

6. This is an unusual paragraph. I'm curious how quickly you can find out what is so unusual about it. It looks so plain you would think nothing was wrong with it. In fact, nothing is wrong with it! It is unusual though. Study it, and think about it, but you still may not find anything odd. But if you work at it a bit, you might find out

Scroll dOwn for answers

Answers:

1. The third. Lions that haven't eaten in three years are dead.

2. The woman was a photographer. She shot a picture of her husband, developed it, and hung it up to dry.

3. Freeze them first. Take them out of the jugs and put the ice in the barrel. You will be able to tell which water came from which jug.

4. The answer is Charcoal.

5. Sure you can: Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow!

6. The letter "e", which is the most common letter in the English language, does not appear once in the long paragraph...

aftn aunties and uncles. my fingers were VERY itchy tt ive been bz updating a new template which i truly luve the colour and de layout. yummieeee. i just luve purple SO much. been adjusting and adding here and there. theres more to come. and guess wat? de lil rascal is hm. so blardy happy. aniwae i dont wanna recap and update ystdae's entry coz it made my blood boil. blood sucker. dont drive me to the edge alrite. you dont wanna c me become SUffy the Vampire Slayer cos if i do, u'll vanish forever from here.

:: ffy 5:14pm ::

Thursday, June 12, 2003

at least his call healed half of my sadness.
but then he blackmailed me. haha. msged me from mum's hp reminding me abt the beg and de hi-card which i promised him. lil rascal. told him to get well asap and what he wants i'll get him.

cried myself to sleep this morning. resulted in puffy eyes (when u minus de p and add s,u'll get my name.hehe) when i woke up at 10.20am. manage to get 6hrs of sleep but at least better than none. ive lost total interests and moods in everything. will get my ass up soon and do the hswk to occupy my blank mind. this will help to lessen mum's burden as well. im visualising Adek in hospital's attire, how he lied on the bed overcoming his sickness, how thin and scrawny he is, and how he's now with all those pokes on his hands. arghhh i don't wanna visualise tt cos i wanna see him with my own puffy eyes.

the more i sit at hm the more worried i am of him and the more i cant stop thinking abt his condition. he's nvr been away from me this long. the worries i have can just fill my empty stomach when im hungry. i miss him calling me Kakak.

:: ffy 11:35am ::

someone pls lullaby me to sleep.
missing Adek every single sec, min, hr and day.

:: ffy 3:11am ::

i just cant seem to close my eyes and kept shedding these precious beads of tears. the thought of Adek at the hospital with none of us there to accompany him to sleep always linger in my troubled mind. i cant eat nor sleep well. he's in bed alone and i wonder if he can manage thou. i truly miss him. got him a 'Get well soon' card when i dropped by hg pt from the hosp. dad came hm from wk in the aftn and i packed Adek my Archie's comics, his electronic games and cd-player together with the lil card as i know dad'll be off to the hospital. come back soon pls. the emptiness of his room saddened me much. the hs is so quiet and lonely w/o him ard. no more squabbles, no more laughters, no more everything.

for the meantime, mum put aside her wk for Adek. she'll go back to the hosp again in the morn. is this some kind of a tribulation for us? i hope tt we'll pull through together as a family. Adek, i want u to be hm soon. so tt i wont have too miss u so much and this hs will then be filled with ur presence back. i dont wanna shed these tears again, im worn out. i dont wanna c mum with headaches for having short sleeps. neither do i wanna see them worrying abt ur health now.

this is worse than those despondency i had in my previous entries. and he, when i needed him by my side badly at times like this, his friends is all he cared for. yet me? noone does. FYI mr,saying sorry wont help in anything. i just dont wanna think of losing Adek. hes de only lil monster tt i have at hm. GOD, provide me with the will to live on, strength to overcome this and hope for Adek to be cured of his illness. get him to be back hm real soon.

:: ffy 1:40pm ::

Wednesday, June 11, 2003

uhh gawd. im hm alone again, with a broken heart. terribly miss Adek. mum didnt wk today and went KK early in the morn when dad sent her there. i met mum at the concourse in the aftn, her eyes were watery and seemed red. pity her for having sleepless nights eversince Adek was admitted.

i left the hospital w/o even having a glance of him. the '2 visitors' rule is so sucky. all bcos of the SARS virus. i cried in the arms of mum when they didnt allow me to visit him just bcos im not registered. i pleaded to let me just see him for few mins, only for today, but all they gave me were some lame excuses. this lah that lah. its as if im bringing in some contagious virus. FCUK!! mum even called dad and he told her to smuggle me in but too bad it just doesnt wk. tears kept on rolling down my cheeks non-stop. and to add to those cries, mum told me they poked Adek's hands here and there, just to take his blood test. HATE THEM for doing tt to him.

even when she tried to liase with the doctor in charge, it was futile. he/or she told mum tt they wont hold any responsibility if unexpected things happened. asked if she could bring Adek to the concourse or just in front of the lift, she explained tt he was still having fever and asleep due to the effects of the medication. i accompanied her till 3+ at the concourse before deciding to go hm.

im controlling my tears, wondering when he'll be back hm.
miss ya, ADEK.

:: ffy 4:43pm ::

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

when the despondency in me has begin to subside, i was dealt with another great blow. received a call from mum at 5.15pm:

mum: what are u doing?
me: im sleeping.
mum: u shld start ur prayers back.
me: *silence*
mum: ur brother is at emergency unit, KK hosp.
he'll be admitted soon.
me: *ctrl my tears* how come?
mum: his white bld cells.
me: *wonders y* where's dad? can i go there?
mum: hes here. u cant. only 2 visitors allowed.
me: *sigh* ok den.

ended the conversation with gdbyes and the beads of tears begin to roll down my cheeks. hm alone since 1pm when mum send lil bro to polyclinic and only to receive a call from her earlier abt de news. hes been up and down the clinics thrice due to his body temperature tt reached as high as 39.2 degrees celcius and intense headaches. i prepared bandung in de aftn for him hoping tt he'll be hm to drink it with dad. but i guess tt jug of bandung will be left in the refrigerator till he comes back from hospital. wonder if he can adapt sleeping on the bed tts tottally a stranger to him. and me, i doubt i can slp with my mind at peace thinking of him tt will not be at hm together with us. shall visit him tomorrow aftn with mum and pray tt he'll be hm soon. being in a hospital is not meant for him.

:: ffy 7:11pm ::

am i just putting up a brave front for all? when im so depressed deep inside? kindly do not ask me why or wat. i do not hold the answers to all this. neither do i know. does sighing counts? these mind games are driving me bonkers and i loathe to waste my precious beads of tears. cos if i do, it will flood and i'll be drown in my own tears den. things which are not meant to be ours will nvr ever be. dream on i shall say it.

:: ffy 12:38am ::

Monday, June 09, 2003

i admit im such such a S-L-O-W learner. it kept me wondering how on earth de instructors have so much patience and tolerance in learners like me. they can die of heart attack i tell u. i can nvr complete my bike licence within the expiry date. blame myself for being undisciplined not to go for practicals in the last 4mths. feel like giving up and just go public but come to think of it de mission of riding it myself has not been accomplished. grrrrrrrr. and furthermore in 2yrs to come i have to be to and fro NIE which is located miles away from hm. i cant depend on public as tt gonna take me hrs to just reach der. de screws on my legs had loosened and dey're going wobbly now due to my mrng practical earlier at 8.35am. ive just lost totally hope in this but constatntly remind myself 'if my 2 gfs who own bikes now can manage it y cant i?' ewwwwwwww...headache headache. need a nap now.

:: ffy 11:57pm ::

Sunday, June 08, 2003

Jokes for sweet Sundae

JOKE #1
Ladies hostel caught Fire.. it took 1 hour to bring the fire under control........ and another 3 hours to bring the firemen under control.

Wife: If I sleep with your best friend what will be the first thought to come in your mind?
Husband: that you are a lesbian.

Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S ???
Because the people started licking the wrong side!

Girl to hungry boyfriend: If my right leg was afternoon meal & left leg evening meal what would you prefer?
Boyfriend: Eating between meals

Nobody is ever satisfied, Poor men wish they were rich,Rich men wish they were handsome, Bachelors wish they were married & Married men wish they were Dead!

How do you teach ! a girl maths?
Add a bed, subtract her clothes, divide her legs, enter your square root, leave your solution and hope she doesn't multiply!

Lady : "I want a good vibrator"
Salesman: "Ma'am you may select one from our range that is displayed on that wall"
Lady : "O.K. I'll take that red one"
Salesman: "Sorry, that's our fire-extinguisher"

A divorced Couple were contesting for possession of the child..
The mother said: "I gave birth to him - he's mine"
The father said: "I put a coin in the pepsi machine and a can comes out - the pepsi belongs to me! not to the machine !!"

A girl says to her boyfriend, "One kiss and I'll be yours forever."
The guy says 'thanks for the warning'

A Husband Was Asked: "Do you talk to your wife after sex?"
He replied: "Depends, If I Can find a Phone"

Definition of a Gynecologist:
Someone who looks for problems where others look for pleasure!!!

Man to wife on wedding night-"Are you sure I'm the first man you are sleeping with?
"Of course honey, I stayed awake with all the others!'

Joke #2
BRAIN TUMOR
Doctor: I regret to tell you that you have a brain tumor.
Mr. Bean: Yesss!!! (jumps in joy)
Doctor: Did you understand what I just told you?
Mr. Bean: Yes of course, do you think I'm dumb?
Doctor: Then why are you so happy?
Mr. Bean: Because that proves that I have a brain!

MR. BEAN WHILE IN GRADE SCHOOL
Teacher: What is 5 plus 4?
Mr. Bean: 9
Teacher: What is 4 plus 5?
Mr. Bean: Are you trying to fool me, you've just twisted the figure, the answer is 6!!

WHILE IN A DRUG STORE
Mr. Bean: I'd like some vitamins for my grandson.
Clerk: Sir, vitamin A, B or C?
Mr. Bean: Any will do, my grandson doesn't know the alphabet yet!!

QUEUING BEHIND HIS FRIEND AT AN ATM MACHINE
Friend: What are you looking at?
Mr. Bean: I know your PIN no., hee, hee.
Friend: Alright, what is my PIN no. if you saw it?
Mr. Bean: four asterisks!

Friend: how many women do you believe must a man marry?
Mr. Bean: 16
Friend: Why?
Mr. Bean: Because the priest says 4 richer, 4 poorer, 4 better and 4 worse.

CHATTING WITH HIS FRIEND
Friend: How was the tape you borrowed from me, is it Ok?
Mr. Bean: What do you mean ok, I thought it's a horror film. I didn't see any picture.
Friend: What tape did you took anyway?
Mr. Bean: Head Cleaner.

Mr. Bean: (crying) the doctor called, Mom's dead.
Friend: condolence, my friend.
After 2 minutes Mr. Bean cries even louder.
Friend: what now?
Mr. Bean: my sister just called, her mom died too!

MR. BEAN ATTENDING A MEETING
Colleague: Sorry I'm late. I got stuck in an elevator for 4 hrs because of a power failure.
Mr. Bean: Thats alright, me too...I got stuck on the escalator
for 3 hrs.

Spelling lesson
Mr. Bean's Son: Dad, what is the spelling of successful....is it one c or two c?
Mr. Bean: Make it three c to be sure!

Joke #3
Attention:
Please be advise that the new company's policy are as follows :

DRESS CODE :
It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your salary, if we see you wearing $750 Prada shoes & carrying a $900 Gucci bag, we assume you are doing well financially and therefore you do not need a raise.

SICK LEAVE :
We will no longer accept a doctor's statement or medical certificate as proof of sickness. If you are able to go to the doctor,you are able to come to work.

SURGERY :
Operations are now banned. As long as you are an employee here, you need all your organs. You should not consider removing anything. We hired you intact.
To have something removed constitutes a breach of your employment contract.

PERSONAL LEAVE :
Each employee will receive 104 days of personal leave a year. They are called Saturday & Sunday.

COMPANY VACATION DAYS :
We are a good company that, on top of your entitlement to 104 days of personal leave a year,allows all employees will take their vacation at the same time every year. The company vacation days are as follows: Jan 1 & Dec 25.

COMPASSIONATE LEAVE :
This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead friends, relatives or co-workers. Every effort should be made to have non-employees attend to the arrangements. In rare cases, where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be scheduled in the late afternoon, and after work. We will be glad to allow you to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early, provided your share of the work is done enough.

LEAVING BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN DEATH :
This will be accepted as an excuse. However, we require at least two weeks' notice as it is your duty to train your own replacement.

RESTROOM USE:
Entirely too much time is being spent in the restroom. In the future, we will follow the practice of going in alphabetical order. 8:20, employees whose names begin with 'B' will go from 8:20 to 8:40 and on. If you're unable to go at your allotted time, it will be necessary to wait until the next day when your turn comes again. In extreme emergencies, employees may swap their time with a co-worker. However, both employees' supervisors must approve this exchange in writing (and not necessarily on toilet paper).

LUNCH BREAKS :
Skinny people get an hour for lunch as they need to eat more so that they can look healthy, normal size people get 30 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to maintain their average figure. Fat people get 5 minutes for lunch because that's all the time needed to drink a Slim Fast & take a diet pill.

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. We are here to provide a positive employment experience. Have a nice week!

From: Management Team

Listening to: Unwell - Matcbox 20

im up early. de only day when my eyes open automatically. been having sleepless nights; waking up de middle of the nights for no reason and cant sleep back as a result. this morning was de worse. i was awakened at 2+ in de morn by his call telling me he's already on the way hm. tried to close my sleepy eyes but dey are just so stubborn.i think i really need sleeping tablets to lullaby me to sleep. this whole thing is freaking me out and my chest pains are invading time and again.

to all lovely ppl out there, have a great, sweet Sundae.
my butt is itching to go out, but the rendevous ive yet to think of it.

:: ffy 10:37am ::

Saturday, June 07, 2003

yippeee yO yipeee yey...its raining.

eversince the countdown celebration at HRC, my Saturdays have been mundane. tt was the last time i stepped in there. no more ladies nights for me on Sat which had been replaced by just being at hm, relaxing and spending the day with family. is it some kind of a new yr resolution? De urging to club is always there but somehow or rather i shoo it away. mum had nvr have a peace of mind when i was out till 4+am back then. with dad's questioning her abt me just kept her more worried. now no more late nights thus no more questionings and no more excessive worries. game over for me. now but not in the phuture.

:: ffy 7:47pm ::

Friday, June 06, 2003

Lousiest essays in the world

Would-be teachers... pray hard that u would NEVER EVER get such a
composition!! Hahahhaha....

IF im the teacher of that student tho... I throw him down fm the highest
floor at school.... Then I can say... fm outside the window I can see a
student flying... read both attachments and u'll know wat im talking abt!
Hahahahhahaha
wOw HEADACHE ah.Lucky i wont be handling such students in the phuture.

Essay 1

Essay 2

seems tt today is much. im able to breathe freely than ystdae. thx to those bloggers for their lovely, sweet concern. awwww my morning sleep was awoken by the ringing of my hp. it was Dee and his news just shocked me. i was terribly sleepy and kept yawning but somehow his news just awakened me up. his NS enlistment will be betw sept-dec this yr. ohh gawd sept? its de mth when we have to celebrate our birhtdays together. mine is just one day apart from his. goshh. my mind was in a twirl when i heard tt. ders so many questions in my head which needed answers soon. ewwwww. for the moment i just dun wanna think abt tt. im off for my tuitions soon. will be kept busy with the 2 lessons till 6+ in de evng. Anna, if u read this chk ur email cos my no. is in it. read the taggy tt u needed to ask me something. will wait for ur call or msg den. till den all bloggers boozers. adios. *smOochies*

:: ffy 1:00pm ::

Thursday, June 05, 2003

I'd rather be given a life of a puppet than a human's
My feelings, pains and the voices in me had been bottled up

:: ffy 10:03pm ::

Stole This from his email but doesnt seem to be jokes to me

Joke # 1

3 guys were introduced to a girl
Hi, I'm Peter not a saint.
I'm Paul not a Pope.
I'm John not a Baptist..
The girl replied: Hi! I'm Mary not a Virgin.

Joke # 2

Q: What was the cause of the break up between Prince Charles and Lady D?
A: Lady D discovers that not all rulers have 12 inches.

Joke # 3

Virgin male on his honeymoon phoned his mom asking what to do.
MOM: Put your biggest thing on her hairiest thing.
SON: OK. I got my nose in her armpit. Now what?

Joke # 4

OLD MAN: Can you give me an erection?
FAITH HEALER: I can make the blind see, make the lame walk and I can even cure cancer, but I'm sorry I cannot raise the dead.

Joke # 5

2 employees were caught naked and having sex in the office by the guard.
GUARD: Aha! Violating company rules!
MAN: What rule?
GUARD: Not wearing uniforms.

Joke # 6

Q: What is the difference between Biology and Sociology?
A: If the baby looks like the father, that is biology. If he looks like the neighbour, that's sociology.

Joke # 7

Q: Define Impotence?
A: It's nature's way of saying "NO HARD FEELINGS"

Joke # 8

A husband was asked: Do you talk to you wife after sex?
His answer: Depends, if I can find a phone.

Joke # 9

At the movie house.
GIRL: Honey, the man beside me is masturbating.
BF: just ignore him dear.
GIRL: I can't. He's using my hand!!

Joke # 10

Q: Why was the 2 piece bikini invented?
A: To separate the meat section from the dairy section.

Joke # 11

Boy 1: why did you run away from the naked lady?
Boy 2: because my mom said that if I look at a naked lady I will turn to stone, and a part of me was already getting hard!!

Joke # 12

A camel and an elephant met.
The elephant asked the camel
Why do u have your breasts on your back?
The camel clearly irritated by the outrage of modesty, replies
"What a silly question from someone who has a dick on his face "

i have a big dream. i wanna further my studies abroad hopefully if ive completed my 5yrs bond with MOE in 7 more yrs. tts pretty long isnt it? u c, my course is actually being 'sponsored' by MOE cos its actually a teaching course. upon graduating from TP, i'll enter NIE as a trainee and shall hold two diplomas i.e Dip in Home Economics and Diploma in Teaching. so tts killing two birds with a stone. tts how i get my monthly bursary but in return i have to serve the bond with them. i just love what im pursuing currently. firstly teaching is my passion, secondly when i graduate at least ders a secured job for me to look upon and i dont have to go job-hunting, thirdly ders bursary, who doesnt love money ryte? fourthly when i retire, at least i can go back to skul for reliefing.

Geeszz..im still in a bad mood. im feeling so terribly low.

:: ffy 4:48pm ::

FUCKKKKK U AHHHH!!!
I HATEE UUU!!!!
I HATEE UUU!!!!
THANKS FOR GIVING ME THE DEATH PENALTY!!!
THANKS A LOAD!!!

And now Hyperventilation is choking me!!
ARGHHHH!!! im not shouting for help, its anger.
Dun pity me. just kill me for gdness sake
i wanna cry. so blardy unfair. he thinks hes always ryte while im not
FUCKK OFF AHHH!!!

FUCCKK IT LAARR.

damn it. my mood for the day has just been spoilt by this twosome ( shall not mention names in here ). just give me a break will u ppl? my heart simply ached and resulting in me having blardy chest pains. shld i be contented for what i have now? or am i greedy for more? i shld thank De Almighty and my lovely mum for letting me step into this beautiful world and tolerate this twosome. such a contradiction. im not a perfectionist but i do hope for a lil perfection of my life or shld i rather say tt i need beautiful ppl to revolve in my life? so tt my mind can be at ease for not having to bear with all de craps and shits, pains and sorrows tt i have to live with. i wonder why assumptions have to ever exist. it just kills me like a sharp knife tt pierced thru my fragile heart.

im grateful De Almighty gave me all the senses tt some handicapped do not have. but sadly to say this is how i truly feel :

I have a heart but every beat of pain and sorrow dey can nvr feel it like i do
I have ears but all i hear are negativities
I have nose but i can nvr smell beatitude for a chnge
I have tongue but bitterness is all i taste
I have mouth but every words spoken are being wronged
I have eyes but the tear drops can nvr expressed how i feel
I have feelings but dey nvr spare a thought for it and..
I have my sense of touch which ive longed for warmth now and forever.

*Bless Me*

see. i told ya. what more i can ask for yet these some ppl are pushing me to a corner. der's a limit to everyone's patience but mine is already to the max. i ever thought of consulting a psychiatrist but dont get me wronged. im not having some mentall illnesses. i just cldnt take it no more and depression been invading, taking hold of me. i just wanna scream out loud but held back the voice in me.

had 6 oreo cookies dunked in a cup of HL milk for brunch while reading Steel's bk. refrain, refrain, refrain. shall restrain myself from eating too much cos i think im getting fatter. im too lazy for an exercise so the only wat out is to cut down the intake of food.

:: ffy 2:31pm ::

Recycled this from my email. (send by Riri@Aresah)

1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
-tt depends wot time i slept the night before

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
-Bill gates

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
-Silver

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
-X Men2

5. FAVOURITE TV SHOW?
-Who's line is it

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
-wot i can find in the kitchen

7. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE LEFT IN A ROOM WITH?
-I dun like outsider to enter my room...he he he

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
-No time to do. niwae i cant

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
-My mummy and dadddy monstah, peers

10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
-mid name? bte?

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
-Beach

12.SUMMER OR WINTER?
-winter (i have not experience it)

13.YUM?
-Yam , yum or yummy?

14. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
-Buttered popcorn

15. FAVOURITE CAR???
-i dont like cars.

16. FAVOURITE SANDWICH FILLING?
-Tuna mayonnaise, yummy

17. FAVOURITE TYPE OF MUSIC?
-tts pleasant to my ears

18. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE?
-pain in de ass, boot lickers

19. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
- blue rose

20. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO SPEND ALL?
-sorrie, lottery not in my dictionary

21. DO YOU WEAR PYJAMAS?
-pyjamas? tt depends

22. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
-definitely black, unless wearing coloured contact lenses

23. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
-just two keys

24. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO RETIRE?
-i shall think of it when i do

25. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
-wait till i try

26. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
-definitely Friday and Sat

27. RED OR WHITE WINE?
-red

28. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
-went HRC with Dee and my cuzz

29. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD?
-nooo

30. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE PERSON THAT SENT THIS TO YOU..
-i gotta tel her personally

31. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
- Dun send or send back I dun care. hehehe

32. WHO IS THE PERSON YOU EXPECT TO SEND THIS BACK FIRST?
- just nobody

33. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
-The Klone and i by Danielle Steel

34 FAVOURITE BOARD GAME?
-Pictionary

35. FAVOURITE MAGAZINE?
-Cleo, Her World

36. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
-Aromatheraphy

37. COMFORT FOOD?
-wots dis? comfort cab?

38.FAVOURITE SOUND?
-smooching sound (*kinky*)

39. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
-being rejected or ur love is not reciprocated

40. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
-thk GOD for giving me another day to live on

41. FAVOURITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
-BK

42. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
-iSzLinnyy (gerl), iSzHardy(boy), iSzWadi(boy)

43. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, ;
-Save for the phuture and droughts

44. DO YOU DRIVE FAST?
-no license

45. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
-bean bears? hamtaro? teddy bears? can?

46. STORMS, COOL OR SCARY?
-Chill

47. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
-Toy car (car OsO wat)

48. FAVOURITE DRINK?
-anyting to do with tea (peach tea, apple tea, lychee tea,lemon tea)

49. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME,
- free time u mean?

50. DO YOU EAT STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
-anything goes

51. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE?
-brunette (is tt how u spell it)

52. HOW MANY DIFFERENT CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN?
-One (spore?)

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

Listening To: Seperti yg Ku Jangka - Indigo & Kru

hoorahh. finally finally. i did it. haha. trust me. dis'll be the last layout tt im gonna use. been changing loads and loads of them but none was up to satisfaction. with loads of determination im done with this. geeszz, took me 3hrs to complete this. niwae aed, im so so free tt ive got nothing to do except this. hehe.

well, before i was in here trying to sort this out, i was out to SSDC to bk for my pract which will be next Mon, 8.35am. purposely bk at tt time hoping there'll be lesser mats and minahs on tt day. *i pray*. nxt destination was Compass pt. my intention was to borrow Danielle Steel's bks at the library and *yippee* finally they're now on my bed, waiting to be read. borrowed 2 of her bks; The Klone And I and Heartbeat. Been an avid reader of Steel since secondary school. couldnt recall those bks which ive read back then.

window-shopped for some time and finally went to Banquet to fill my growling stomach. had carrot cake for dinner.left the plc and headed to Coffee Bean Hg pt to have a drink cos i just cldnt wait to open and start reading her bks. im so so impatient am i? hehe. niwae didnt stay der for long. went hm straight as i was already worn-out. cant blame the hormones in me.

shall read the The Klone and I before im off to bed. will be able to complete the whole bk within 3 days hopefully cos im so into it.

:: ffy 11:53pm ::

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

A forwarded email. Its not my personal list.

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know
where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when
I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for
the tv remote because they refuse to walk to the tv and change the channel
manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn
right! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is.
Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do
this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their ass!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I
paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a
choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it?
If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an
improvement, then there must have been something before it.

8. When people say "life is short". What?? Life is the longest damn
thing anyone ever does!!
What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come
yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumass

Monday, June 02, 2003

Listening to: MisteeQ - One night stand

gawd..the headache almost killed me earlier. felt like head 'banging' on the concrete wall. left side of my head was much more aching than de right's. took paracetamol but didnt had tt much effect on the pain. alas, lied on the bed, attempting to relieve the pain but it was futile. dozed off for half an hr w/o realizing. the aromatheraphy incense kept burning, filling the room with its sweet frangrance. woke up and managed to talk to Dee for a few minutes. de sudden mood swing cut our conversation short. it was my fault though.

btw we'll gonna have difficulty in taking care of the Ham-Hams in phuture. 9 Ham-Hams at present and i guess we'll be having more as to his horror, he discovered de 2 Ham-Hams had mated in de aftn. goshh. i wonder if i can continue being their guidance if Dee is to be away. does anyone of u out der interested in having some of my Ham-Hams (though it saddens me to part with dem)?

:: ffy 11:49pm ::

Listening to: For all time - Soluna

wasnt in de mood at all to pen down my tots in here ystdae. didnt do anyting much except rotting away in my room watching Hindi show and had my aftn nap for few hrs. had chicken franks and 3 slices of bread and a cup of ice peach tea for bfast this morng. de same menu which i had for de past few days. was being decisive as to whether to stay put at hm or be under the scorching sun. Dee suggested of catching Bruce Almighty or Matrix but i shrugged off de idea. i guess my mood swing is back. neither this nor tt can simply lightened me up. eventually, now sitting on de comfort of the comp chair typing this away. de idea of shopping at IKEA or going for a jog in my mind iniatially had faded away. am waiting for my daddy monstah to bring hm some snacks for me to devour on. im so starving. i have big tank mind u.

:: ffy 4:57 ::

Sunday, June 01, 2003

Have Mercy On me

A man was complaining: "Oh Lord, please have mercy on me,I work so hard and my wife stays at home. I would give anything if you would grant me one wish: switch me into my wife! She's got it easy at home. I want to teach her a lesson of how tough a man's life is." As God was listening, he felt sorry for this soul and
granted his wish. Next morning the "new woman" wakes up at dawn, makes lunch boxes, prepares breakfast, wakes up the kids for school, puts a load of clothes in the washer, takes the meat out of the freezer, drives the kids to school, on his way back stops at the gas station, cashes a check, pays the electricity and phone bills, picks up some clothes from the cleaners, quickly goes to the market.

It was 1:00 already, he made the beds, took the clothes out of the washer and put another load in, he vacuumed the house, made some rice, went to pick up the kids from school and had an argument with them about homework. As soon as he got home, he fed the kids, washed the dirty dishes, he hung the damp clothes he had washed on the chairs because it was raining outside. He helped the kids with their homework, watched some TV while he ironed some clothes, prepared dinner, he gave the kids a bath and put them to sleep.

At 9:00 he was so tired, he went to bed. Of course there were some more duties and somehow he managed to get them done and finally fell asleep.

The next morning he prays to God once again: "Oh Lord, what was I thinking when I asked you to grant my wish, I can't take it anymore. I beg you please switch me back to myself, please oh please." Then he heard God's voice speaking to him, saying: "Dear son, of course I'll switch you back into yourself but there's one minor detail: you'll have to wait 9 months because last night you got pregnant."