you stole my heart

Sunday, November 30, 2003

Listening to: Ada Ape Dgn Cinta - Melly

before "Ada ape dengan Cinta" made a debut here in Suria, mum had already catched the drama on the Indonesia channel and ive DL de sOundtraCk On Kazaa, when i first heard it On RIA 89.7FM. till nOw, i was hOOked On it and nvr seem tO get siCk and tired of it. whenever i was dOwn and had an argUment with pillar of strength, dis sOng will always be played On my pC.. gUess its my all time favOurite Malay lOvey dOvey sOng.

been less than a wk we've been celebrating Raya, yet sO mUch dispUtes had OccUred within this periOd. i was thUs being patient and nOt blew Up my tOp at any pOint Of time. kept my cOOl cOs nO matter hOw bad de argUments can be, dey can still be settled. tOday will be de last day my family will be Outz fOr Raya visits, sO im left with de Outings wif my Gfs. to be cOntinued..

:: ffy 02:45pm::

Friday, November 28, 2003

woke up real early though ystdae was a hectic dae.. had breakfast at amk ctrl with mummie monstah and aCcompanied her to cpf building at Bishan. did some window shopping at J8 and got the slightest idea on what to splurge my money on. just need to pick the best timing to do my shopping. will be expecting a lot of guests to be here in a while, mostly mum's side. i was told to prepare spaghetti (which was my speciality) for them. there goes my money, almost spent close to $100 just for today. waiting for my pay to be banked in tomorrow..*slurps*.

hopefully i can have an early nite off to do my revision..will not study at de eleventh hr cos by then it'll be too late. i need my suga for now.. but cant.

:: ffy 07:10pm ::

Thursday, November 27, 2003

there's still loads of hs visits to cover which will take up for another 3-4 days i guess. well, it cant be helped. mum and dad have too many relatives to take account for, not forgetting their nieces and nephews whose hOuses tt have yet to visit. being 19 is not tt bad as im still entitled for green packets, mostly from daddy monstah's side, for they are damn generous. my daddy's younger sis,(my aunt, in short) was teasing me on de 1st dae of raya when we went to Bishan which was our 1st hs to visit grdma.

me:(begged her forgiveness only to find out this)
aunt:ure a grown up now so i shall not hand u any packet from now.
me:ewww, how can?im still a student *grins*
aunt:yahh, but still, u get bursary every mth right?
me:tt dosent count..my bus pass can vouch for me. if dis gonna happen in every hs, i guess i'll have to wear my lanyard with de bus pass in it so tt dey'll noe i AM still a student. (with de ppl in de backgrd laughing)
alas, she handed me tt precious green packet and hugged me, causing my hair to be messed up.

we managed to cover 8 houses on de 1st day, creating a history in my 19yrs of Raya. we didnt wait for the rest of my relatives for the hs visits like those previous years as daddy had to rush for time cos he had to wk ystdae. reached hm early too, breaking record, 10+pm. usually it'll be close to midnight. and i managed to bloat up my stomach by savouring those dishes at every hOuses. now am having sore throat due to an intense consumption of cold drinks. well, Raya is once in a yr and only last for a mth, so why not make full use of it. will upload my Raya pics once dey are developed and provided ders a new scanner.

:: ffy 04:15pm ::

An old lady dies and goes to heaven. She's chatting it up with St. Peter at the Pearly Gates when all of a sudden she hears the most awful, blood curdling creams.

Don't worry about that," says St. Peter, "it's only someone having the holes put into her shoulder blades for wings." The old lady looks a little uncomfortable but carries on with the conversation. Ten minutes later, there are more blood curdling screams.
"Oh my God," says the old lady, "now what is happening?" "Not to worry," says St. Peter, "She's just having her head drilled to fit the halo."I can't do this," says the old lady, "I'm going to hell." "You can't go there," says St. Peter. "You'll be raped and sodomized." "Maybe so", says the old lady, "but I've already got the holes for that !!!"

Sunday, November 23, 2003

dis yr Raya, its as simple as it can be..instead of my yearly 4 pairs of baju kurung and kebaya, ive only got myself a new pair and will be putting on 2 of the recycled spaghetti dresses tt my aunt Once wore. at least better than nothing, so i shld be thankful for what i have. as for mUm, she'll be wearing de baju kurung tt i bOught for her at RH fashion which i think it was last yr and she will lay out her queen size bed with de set of bed cover tt ive got for her on mother's day. beats me why dis yr it seems so slacked as compared to the previous yr which ive celebrated together with my family. and of all day, dis wed will be my revision class for the supp paper tt i'll be sitting for. lame isnt it? luckily its gonna be from 12-2pm, hopefully there's no plan for hs visits during tt period.

niwae am glad my lil bro managed to survive his PSLE, now waiting for the sec sch tt he'll be posted too. though its not up to our expectation, his results were acceptable still. how fast time flies and off he goes to another stage of his life.

de only time i feel so blessed and blissful is when my pocket is full of Mr Yusof Ishak's paper notes though its de sch hols and when i could just have a sinful time with pillar of strength..all i can do is to just shake legs at hm wo having to go sch and my pay still rolls in..easy life for 2mths. wonder when i can have a cup of coffee or hot cocoa with pillar of strength and enjoy de breeze together? ive planned to get myself a DGcam and a new Cd player, so de pay tts gonna land in my pocket soon will have to be saved up..de scanner's at hm had gone bonkers for long too, gotta get a new one. loads of gadgets tt i need to search for and buy, thus extra bucks have to keep on rolling into my big pocket.

here,im wishing all bloggers and readers a 'Slamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin'. hope any offending words in my posts will be forgiven, for i dont mean to shoot at anyone.

:: ffy 10:35pm ::

LEPAS BACA JANGAN MARAH.....NANTI KENA JUAL!!!!
Orang bodoh = pakai credit card sampai maximum pas tu tak leh bayar (berlagak macam org banyak duit!)
Orang pandai= pakai credit card tapi orang lain bayarkan (pakai kad klon la tu!)

Orang bodoh=ada motor tapi gi kerja nak naik LRT jugak (kes suka'bergesel'la ni)
Orang pandai=tak de motor,tak de kereta, tak de LRt tapi ada otak (kes suka numpang kereta or motor kawan tapi tak reti nak hulur duit minyak!)

Orang bodoh=company dah sediakan nescafe, milo,biskut bla bla bla tapi gi minum gak kat cafeteria kena bayar plak tu
Orang pandai=tak minum kat cafeteria tapi company punya nescafe,milo,biskut bla bla bla angkut bawak balik !!!!

Orang bodoh=beli suratkhabar sebab nak tengok nombor ekor je pas tu buang
Orang pandai=orang yg tunggu org bodoh buang pas tu dia kutip...dapat baca semua sekali wo

Orang bodoh=kentut kuat2 kat office pas tu bangga ngan bau nya
Orang pandai=kentut senyap sunyi (tak de bunyi) bau nya...boleh buat unta sakit perut ! dhab pun koma sekejap ! pas tu bermati-matian salahkan member sebelah (guess sapa member sebelah tu?....si bodoh yg kentut kuat tu la !)

Orang bodoh=ada masalah cerita kat orang pandai
Orang pandai=dengar masalah orang bodoh pas tu cerita kat orang bodoh yang lain, pas tu membodohkan orang bodoh tu...jadinya orang bodoh yang pertama tu jadi bodoh's (plural)

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Orang bodoh=orang yg buang masa baca email ni !
Orang pandai=originator cerita ni...hÃ¡ hÃ¡ hÃ¡... aku la tu...jadi yang mana
satu pilihan bijak?

pandainyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Jangan marah arrrrrrr...... bulan pose nie kan......

Saturday, November 22, 2003

how much i detest my life now, GOD noes..i'd rather be breathless than suffocate in this world, where noone give a damn FCUKING shit of my presence..when they're in need, im de 1st one whom they sought help from but when their life is in gd shape, im of no value and was chucked aside..how fair can it be? all i ask is for them to be appreciative of my kindness..too much for me to ask? NO its NOT. i dont ask for wealth in return. being appreciative of one's kindness is valueless. doesnt even require much of their time either. the only ppl who REALLY acknowledge my existence and solicitude are my gals and pillar of strength. i really luve them loads more than my parents and him. Y? at least they know tt im still visible to their eyes..i treat them as part of my family and i ADMIT i cant live wo them. i do luve my parents but not as much as my luve for the ppl as mentioned above.

i know life's not perfect and what's life wo probs but at least i could resolve conflicts and go thru thick and thin together with my gals and pillar of strength. but for him, he chose to run away from reality. im DRAINED and EXHAUSTED from being the only one who have to fend for myself. how i wish HE would just take away my life while im asleep..only then this heartless ppl will treasure me when im gone. i wanted BADLY to just take my own life which i did thrice but too bad im still alive. no pt of me living in this world tts full of so much ungratefulness. pillar of strength, I BEG U to take me away, to a plc far from here where noone can ever find me. i'd rather let de rship sink den let it float with a buoy. wats de use of clinging onto it if ders no reason for it to live?

with the state im in now, doubt i can really hold on tt long. with things at hm being so unpredictable, me resitting for my paper and bla bla bla...all i really need now is a GD LONG sleep, hoping for a better tomorrow, but it has never been any . its gonna be Raya soon, but life's as it is..no improvement nor nothing. where have i gone wrong or what did i do to deserve all this? give me a satisfied answer to all de qns asked. so far ders NONE. 730 days of being with u are like living in hell.

IT HURTS TO LUVE SOMEONE WHEN U CANT HAVE tt PERSON, IVE BEEN DER AND ALWAYS WILL BE DER..DE FEELINGS WILL NVR CEASE

ure de light of my life now and i never do want to switch it off for any reasons..

:: ffy 11:42pm::

i found this message in my email. stored for dunno how many generation. haha. there's some truth in the joke. very real life. heh heh heh.

-learn to speak chinese in 5 minutes.-
01) that's not right = Sum Ting Wong
02) are you harboring a fugitive? = Hu Yu Hai Ding
03) see me ASAP = Kum Hia Nao
04) stupid Man = Dum Fuk
05) small Horse = Tai Ni Po Ni
06) did you go to the beach? = Wai Yu So Tan
07) i bumped into a coffee table = Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni
08) i think you need a face lift = Chin Tu Fat
09) it's very dark in here = Wao So Dim
10) i thought you were on a diet = Wai Yu Mun Ching?
11) this is a tow away zone = No Pah King
12) our meeting is scheduled for next week = Wai Yu Kum Nao?
13) staying out of sight = Lei Ying Lo
14) he's cleaning his automobile = Wa Shing Ka
15) your body odor is offensive = Yu Stin Ki Pu
16) great = Fa Kin Su Pah

Disclaimer note: i am not a racist. this is a joke. if u need to read this to know this is a joke, something is seriously worng with you. if u take this personally, no compensation will be provided for u. apologies to u will not be considered.

Friday, November 21, 2003

thOugh tOday marked the 2nd anniversary Of me & Dee, it feels like a nOrmal day tO me..fUrthermOre, as expeCted i failed my Principles of Biochemistry and Physiology for Nutrition.. sO supp paper, here i cOme. tt means i have tO pUt On my thinking cap baCk..have tO slOg fOr de paper again & saCrifiCe my raya here & der..nO mOre gallivanting tOo.wOnder when's de sUpp paper gOnna be..arghhhh, i need a pass..if nOt i'll have tO see Kalpana's faCe again whiCh i jUst lOathe..gUess she mUst be clapping her hands knOwing tt i cOuldnt sUrvive de paper & i think im de Only One whO will resit fOr it.. jUst my lUck. seems tt de wOrld has cOllapsed On me...ARGHHHH.

:: ffy 06:20pm ::

Thursday, November 20, 2003

not enOugh of this 4hr rebOnding sessiOn, add tO it, ive intended tO go for a MAKE OVER..a 1st One. im hardly seen in pUbliC with make up On my faCe or pUtting On skirts/short dresses. ive cast away these feminine stuffs fOr 3yrs until recently, thx tO pillar of strength, ive begUn tO wear them baCk after rUmmaging my full-of-pants wardrObe.. ur wish is my cOmmand.

3.5 hrs mOre tO gO & i'll b OUts frOm hm. yet tO irOn my dress and dO sOme spring cleaning. nOt niCe tO keep sOmeOne waiting, bUt im still de regUlar latecOmer..cant be help.

:: ffy 02:00pm ::

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

being de vainpot i am, i might head fOr my 3rd rebOnding sessiOn at de end of de yr when i get my deC's pay..nvm de 4 hr Of waiting, fOr i tink pillar of strength will be my cOmpaniOn..

THIS IS A GOOD ONE........ must read!!

The multi-purpose FutureCard will be the version of our perpetually metamorphosing IC in the near future. With an embedded smart chip, it
can also be used as a passport, store our medical history, driver's
license, act as an ATM card, serve as an electronic purse and even be used at
the National Library...what ever you do with the card...you will be
tracked!It may also be a tracking device via GPRS (Good or Bad, depending the situation)

However, a recent debate has brought to light the questionable control on access, potential information abuse and privacy infringement. As the debate rages on, I can foresee a likely scenario when ordering pizzas in the near future...

Operator : "Thank you for calling Pizza Hut Geylang. May I have your..."
Customer: "Haloo, arh...can I orler huh..."
Operator : "Can I have your Future Card number first, Sir?"
Customer: "It's arh..., hold on prease, arh..... S6102-0499-54610FC"
Operator : "OK... you're... Tan Ah Beng alias 'Or Kwee Tao' and you're calling from 17-D Lorong 14, Geylang. Your home number is 6782 8828,
your office 6782 8838 and your mobile is 96828848. Which number are you
calling from now Sir?
Customer: "Home lah! Wah Lan...How you get all my phone lumbers, arh?"
Operator : "We are connected to the 'FutureCard' system Sir"
Customer: "OK lah, okay lah...Can I orler your Seafood Pisar..."
Operator : "That's not a good idea Sir"
Customer: "Why....Cannot arh?"
Operator : "According to your latest medical records, you have high blood
pressure and even higher cholesterol level Sir"
Customer: "What?...Wah Lan!....medical lecords also hab... you lecommend
lah?"
Operator : "Try our Low Fat Hokkien Mee Pizza. You'll like it"
Customer: "Wah...How you know I like Hokkien mee, arh?"
Operator : "You borrowed a book entitled "Popular Hokkien Dishes" from the
National Library last week Sir"
Customer: "OK...OK...Buay Ta Han liow... I give up... Gif me three family
sized ones then, how much arh?
Operator : "That should be enough for your family of 10, Sir. The total is $45..."
Customer: "I pay by FutureCard...Can or Not ?"
Operator : "I'm afraid you have to pay us cash, Sir. Your credit card is
over the limit and you're owing your bank $6720.55- since October last year"
Customer: "Karn Nee Neh!... Everything also know...chiat lat!"
Operator : "That's not including the late payment charges on your housing
loan Sir.
Customer: "Okay lah...I run to ATM and withdraw some cash before you come
my house lor"
Operator : "You can't Sir. Based on the records, you've reached your daily limit on machine withdrawal today....with the latest withdrawal of $250 for 4D and TOTO at 2.46pm"
Customer: "Never mind just send the pizzas, I borrow money from my Ah Mah. How long arh?"
Operator : "About 45 minutes Sir, but if you can't wait you can always come and collect it on your motorcycle...it'll be ready in 15 mins and you are only 5 mins away"
Customer: "Where got transport?"
Operator : "According to the details in your FutureCard", you own a Honda
Scooter, ...registration number FE 3288..."
Customer: "Karn Nee Neh!"
Operator : "Better watch your language Sir. Remember on 15th July 1987 you
were convicted of using abusive language on a policeman... ?"
Customer: [Speechless and calms down after being reminded of the brush with the law]
Operator : "Is there anything else Sir?"
Customer: "Nothing... by the way... still got stock of that 3 free bottle
of cola as advertised or not?"
Operator : "We normally would Sir, but based on your records you're also diabetic....... "
Customer : [ Heard cursing away as he slams down the phone and telling his
family he is going to the Hawker Centre to 'Tar Pow' ]

3.5 solid days suffocating, had a hard time breathing. rather be breathless than gasping for air. at least, nO hassles fOr being lifeless. but phewww, am able tO breathe again fOr my Oxygen sUpply has been restOred.

:: ffy 12:33am ::

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

Subject: : Nama2 Jowo yang baik2 saja

untuk yg inginkan nama orang jowo...
Nama Baik Untuk Bakal Anak....
Untuk kegunaan masa depan bagi mereka yang ingin menambah zuriat..

Pilihan nama jawa yang bagus2 diperturunkan. Kalau kawin dgn Jawa, eloklah guna nama ini untuk anak...

Pilihlah yg anda berkenan:-
Pandai tanam bunga, diberikan nama - Rosman.
Pandai membaiki kereta, namakan - Karman
Average dalam golf - Parman
Gagah perkasa - Suparman
Boleh mendengar sambil berjalan - Wakiman
Selalu bertanya - Azman (loghat jawa bunyi Asman)
Pandai buat kuih - Paiman
Pakar jualan - Salman
Pakar pasal alam sekitar - JASman (Jab. Alam Sekitar)
Pandai melukis, tulis sajak, nyanyi lagu - Saniman
Doktor gigi - Sugiman
Supaya cepat naik pangkat - Yasman
Bakal kaki pukul dan dera orang - Deraman
Ada darah Bengali - Manbai
Pandai organise skim cepat kaya - Pakman (Te' Lo)
Mat rock - Rokman
Jadi polis trafik - Saman
Pakar kunci - Lokman
Baik budi pekerti - Budiman

Ada lagi.....
Buat kerja ala kadar - Kadarisman
Suka bagi orang susah - Sukarman
Suka mengada-ngada - Ngadiman
Dua alam - Herman
Paling tak guna - Koman
Selalu sakit - Deman
Kalau yang kuat berlawan - Ultraman
Yg suka main daun terup poker -Pokerman

Corporate Lesson 1

A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower when the doorbell rings. After a few seconds of arguing over which one should go and answer the doorbell, the wife gives up, quickly wraps herself up in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbor. Before she says a word, Bob says, "I'll give
you $800 to drop that towel that you have on" After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob. After a few seconds, Bob hands her 800 dollars and leaves. Confused, but excited about her good fortune, the woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets back to the bathroom, her husband asks from the
shower, "Who was that?" "It was Bob the next door neighbor," she replies. "Great!" the husband says, "Did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?"

Moral of the story: If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk in time with your stakeholders, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Corporate Lesson 2
A priest was driving along and saw a nun on the side of the road, he stopped and offered her a lift, which she accepted. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to open and reveal a lovely leg. The priest had a look and nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up
her leg. The nun looked at him and immediately said, "Father, remember Psalm 129?" The priest was flustered and apologized profusely. He forced himself to remove his hand. Changing gear, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, "Father, remember Psalm 129?" Once again the priest apologized "Sorry sister but the flesh is weak. "Arriving at the convent, the nun got out gave him a meaningful glance and went on her way. On his arrival
at the church, the priest rushed to retrieve a bible and looked up Psalm 129.
It Said, "Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory."

Moral of the story: Always be well informed in your job, or you might miss a great opportunity.

Corporate Lesson 3

A sales rep, an administration clerk and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out in a puff of smoke. The Genie says, "I usually only grant three wishes, so I'll give each of you just one." "Me first! Me first!" says the admin clerk. "I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world." Poof! She's gone. In astonishment, "Me next! Me next!" says the sales rep. "I want to be in Hawaii, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an Endless supply of pina coladas and the love of my life." Poof! He's gone. "OK, you're up," the Genie says to the manager. The manager says, "I want those two back in the office after lunch."

Moral of the story: Always let your boss have the first say.

Corporate Lesson 4

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?" The
crow answered: "Sure, why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Corporate Lesson 5
A turkey was chatting with a bull. "I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree," sighed the turkey, but I haven't got the energy." "Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They're packed with nutrients." The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.

Corporate Lesson 6

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by
and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story:
1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

Sunday, November 16, 2003

woke up real late today..12+pm. not always i can get tO wake up sUper dUper late. it wasnt my day ystdae. totally nOt. had thOse rOutine dispUtes with him and left me shedding these tears again. fCuk!! i hate it. cOs of it, i was rUnning late tO meet idah MNG at Orchard mrt. half an hr late tO be exact. add tO it, 72 brOke dOwn On de midst of its jOurney tO YCK mrt, thUs we had tO alight & i tOok 159 tO AMK mrt stn instead. der, i hUrried myself tO de escalatOr and didnt nOtiCe tt i tOok de wrOng One. instead Of taking de One heading tO tOwn, i tOok de esCalatOr heading tO jUrOng. lUckily i realised when i was still at the platfOrm.*dangzzz*. de rest remained as histOry.

reached tOwn exactly at 4 & made Our way tO far east plaza fOr my hair treatment. silly me, my brain wasnt fUnctiOning tt well ystdae & mistOok lUcky plaza fOr far east. *sigh*. lUcky it was jUst a 1.5 hr treatment bUt cOst me $35. my hair smell like cOlgate dUe tO de iCe treatment. we stiCked tO tOwn n drOpped de idea Of heading geylang. thOugh it was a saturdae night, tOwn wasnt tt jam packed nOr any human traffiC jams. Unlike geylang. i'll b like thOse sardines in the tin, being sqUeezed & fOr sure my feet will get stepped Umpteen times. had a light snack & mediUm maCdOnald's iCe lemOn tea fOr break fast. same gOes fOr idah exCept tt, she had iCed milO. slaCking Opp ZARA's liat tOwer with Our fOod & menthOl lite, reminisCing thOse times we were wking at MNG ngee ann ct. cOuldnt get hOld Lynn MNG as she wasnt wking. did i heard wrOngly abt her new wkplC?

reached hm at 11.10pm and cOuld already feel the lethargy. it wasnt as if i was walking the whOle dae..my day wOuld have been cOmplete and happily sweet dreaming bUt as UsUal im always de creatOr of all prOblems. *sigh*. dUn wish tO elabOrate On it. wOnder if i shld gO On hiatus...

:: ffy 01:55pm ::

Friday, November 14, 2003

2mrw's Outing will be with Idah MNG, instead Of Mr Dee. im frUstrated enOugh, sO i shall ask her tO acCOmpany me fOr my hair treatment at Far East Plaza. Thereafter im UnsUre where we shall head next. might drOp by at Heeren tO sUrprise Lynn MNG at her wOrkplace. have yet tO deCide if Geylang will be de destinatiOn after tOwn. blOg hOpped and nOtiCed there'll be qUite a handfUl Of fellOw blOggers heading Geylang 2mrw. if im there, might be able tO spOt sOme Of them. well, cant wait tO have a beeChing sessiOn with dis Idah. miss thOse days when we Used tO wk part time at MNG. slaCking dUring break times and after knOcking Off frOm wk, where we wld chat w/O realising tt it was already late and time fOr Us tO head hm.

:: ffy 11:12pm ::

jUst when i am abOut tO hang lOose and create sOme empty spaCe in my OccUpied mine, those intrUders had tO barge intO Our privaCy caUsing anOther torment tt gOnna have an adverse effeCts On me. nOOne is at faUlt. if der is, i can Only blame thOse intrUders. such a traUmatizing inCident tt will nOt be OvercOme Overnight. well, lOoks like my mind will have endless wOrries & UnwelcOming thOughts. pardOn me pillar Of strength, bUt u nOe me well enOugh tt nOthing can ever stOp me frOm having these heart wrenChing thOughts. Zilch. nOt even my will pOwer, cOs im tOtally drained Out. im growing more melancholy every hour by de dae if it's nOt ceasing. jUst need tO create a lil spaCe fOr myself w/O having tO think Of de despOndenCy.

ive nvr wished tO have these thOughts nOr even wanna think abt them. de mOre i shrUgged it Off, de mOre i will be invaded by them. they jUst cOme & gO in my mind w/o knOcking first. being a headstrOng persOn, i jUst cant help thinking abt it. wishing fOr my brain tO stOp fUnctiOning. simply tO say hOw i wished im dead? hard tO embraCe these faCts bUt time and again ive tO remind myself tt this is reality im living in. im impatient, thUs i cant take a step at a time. im blaming myself nOw fOr making sUch a big step and eventUally fell intO a big hOle where there's nO way Out fOr me. nO matter hOw hard i try tO pUll myself tO get OUt Of de hOle, i was Unable tO.

:: ffy 02:50pm ::

READ DIS

Subject: New Oxford-Singapore Dictionary
Date: Thu, 13 Nov 2003 22:51:56 +0800

>LILY (a.k.a. really) - adverb. extremely, really
>"Wah, you lily can sing well ah!

>VALLEY (a.k.a. very) - adverb. extremely
>"Look! My Versachee belt, valley nice hor?"

>GORGES (a.k.a. gorgeous) - adj. stunningly beautiful, normally found with
>valley
>"Wah! Ah Beng's girlflan is valley gorges leh!"

>CORAL (a.k.a. quarrel) - verb. to bicker
>"Why, you not happy, ah? Want to coral, is it?"

>REEF (a.k.a. with) - (normally followed with coral) to argue with
>"You lily want to coral reef me ah?"

>ALTITUDE (a.k.a. attitude) - adjective. a disagreeable demeanour
>"Ah Lian Lily got a bad altitude ploblem".

>CIRRUS (a.k.a. serious) - adjective. certain
>"You cirrus or not? Dun bruff!"

>CANOPY (a.k.a. cannot be) - phrase. impossible
>"He bought new handphone? Canopy lah! Where got money?"

>OLDLADY (a.k.a. already) - adjective. completed
>"Wah...you finish oldlady ah."

>SUIT (a.k.a. shoot) - verb. to project forward
>"Suit! Suit! See goalkeeper come out oldlady."

>SOW (a.k.a. show) - verb. to reveal
>"Sow me, sow me your new ting."

>LOAD (a.k.a. Road) - noun. a path normally made up of gravel & tar
>"We go Orchard Load leh."

>BLINK (a.k.a. bring) - verb. deliver, send
>"What you blink for me? Sow me, sow me."

and Dis

Date: Wed, 12 Nov 2003 14:38:25 +0800 (CST)
From: "Biscuit Lover"
Subject: BEWARE OF THIS LOONY!!!!Spread this to the girls you know
To: bananaboat@yahoo.com.sg

Dear Sisters and Brothers out there

If you happened to be part of this network call Friendster, beware of this guy named Vincent Chua. If you are working in Shenton Way, Raffles Place BE VERY CAREFUL AT NIGHT!

I got to know this loony through my irc mate who is his colleague working in Shenton way an Auditing Firm.

Some days ago, this loony sent me a message through the network to ask me "meet for f***". Through my network of friends, I managed to find out more of this loony.

As he describe himself he likes "all things sinful like sex", yes indeed but its a question mark whether he is a bisexual or what. He always hangs out with his male colleagues after work till late, leads a sleazy lifestyle. He has a girlfriend whom my friend said he was 'rather respectful of".

If you find this email intrusive, I am sorry. Believe me I did this for the good of the girls out there. I am not the only victim of his harassment. I wish his girlfriend would know this, all guys out there who has your partner working in Shenton way or a member of planet fitness BEWARE!

ders nO mOre Of my Mr CadbUry HOt Cocoa left in de kitChen Cabinet.. i jUst cant live wO tt Mr hOt CoCoa, life's sO empty & incOmplete. my appetite has been deteriOrating fOr de past 1 week, sO Mr Hot CoCoa was my Only cOnsUmptiOn.

slept very early ystdae, at 7.45pm till i was awaked by de ringing Of my cell frOm Dee. cheCked time & it was Only 11+. tOt i was in slUmberland fOr lOng. whOle bOdy ached and my heart beat was racing. had a rather sleepless night ystdae cOs 1stly, i can't have an early night cOs i'll be waking Up in de middle Of my slp fOr every few hrs. and 2ndly, ystdae's inCident kept haUnting me. it kept re-rUnning On my OccUpied mind till i had nightmare. pillar Of strength & i are still trying tO digest fOr what had happened. bUnch Of blardy arsehOles. im still shakened by it and recOvering frOm de shOck. it was a DAMN bad lUck dae ystdae.

mite be meeting Ida 2mrw mOrning at TM befOre heading tOwn in de afternOon for my hair treatment. *sigh*. hOpe tt i'll be able tO recOver sOon frOm tt UnexpeCted-nOr-welcOming inCident.

:: ffy 10:25am ::

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

dis holiday, i think im gOnna sew lOads & lOads Of items or mayb jOb-hUnting. i need tt xtra cash tO keep me flOating. *sighs*

jUst FYI Shaz & Dilah, read this Up. My Course. and click On Consumer Science & TechnOlogy (CST).

One thing tts great abt dis cOurse is nOt the bUrsary tt i get every mth, thOugh i admit having de bUrsary can help me tO make ends meet and my parents need nOt fOrk Out any cents fOr my edUcatiOn dis time rOund. What fascinate me is tt, it makes me an all rOunder stUdent. left side Of my brain is Science and de right side is Design, thOugh it's diffiCult tO jUggle bOth at de same time. it benefits me a lOt taking Up dis cOurse. being in Design sch, i can nOw sew my Own apparel, sOlely mine. and in de Applied Science, its mainly Science as what de sch's name sUggest.

Only selected nUmber Of stUdents will be sUccessfUl in entering dis cOurse. my batCh's de last tt has 50 intakes. de next rOund, Only 20 intakes i sUppOse, as ders Only 20 of dem dis yr. hmmm, MOE have deCided tO cUt dOwn de nUmber Of intakes as there's tOo many fUtUre-tO-be Home EcOns teachers. first it was tOo little, nOw it's tOo many. MOE dOes nOt intend tO clOse dOwn the cOurse as the theOry & praCtiCal inpUt tt we gained dUring this 3 yrs cOurse are significant & trained Us tO be Home ecOnOmics teachers upOn gradUatiOn.

and i feel seCured when i tOok Up dis cOurse as i need nOt wOrry abt nOt getting a jOb after i gradUated. i dUn mind de 5yrs bOnd with MOE cOs dis is where my path is, my career and passiOn.

im dead beat. went tO sch dis mrng fOr my Design exhibitiOn & had tO carry hOme lOads Of stUffs. UpOn reaching hm, did de hswk & cleaning. lessen mUm's bUrden. and im glad i met tt idOt cOs i miss her. and if ure reading dis ida, stOp making fUn Of me & my blOggy k. hahaha. early night all.

:: ffy 09:00pm ::

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

met my supervising teacher at CHIJ dis mOrning with my partner Sabrina (the teenage witch). it was rather a rushing meeting sessiOn as Mrs Freeman had a class tO cOndUct. basically we clarified with her On de dress code, sChOol hrs, eca invOlvement & what nOt.. jUst tO get Us prepared & familiarise with the schOol system. 30 mins gOne by & Off i went hm.

euww yUmmyliCiOus.. ive gOt my mediCine dis evng. sweet sUgar hOney pie is baCk. gOt hm at 10.30pm and managed tO catCh Who's Hot On TCS 5. tt Valerie White is babeliCiOus. she's sUper dUper awesOme, with her sweet baby faCe & her hair tied Up. her figUre was whOaa, jUst like de hr glass. mUm said she resembled Nurul Ain of Zoom Thailand. and as expeCted she made it tO the next rOund. u gO gerl.

:: ffy 12:34am ::

Sunday, November 09, 2003

ape kata ari nie saya blOg dlm bahasa Melayu? utk ari nie je. sesUnggUhnye bahasa ibUnda saya bUkan lah sehebat anda, anda dan anda di lUar sana. kOnOn nye nak 'tOuch Up' ah kirakan nie? nak bertUtUr dlm bahasa Mlayu nie bUkannye senang..dah jadik mCm rOjak. bahasa Inggeris nye ade, bahasa Mlayu nye pUn ade. mCm bapak saya kata, kalaU nak bercakap tU biarlah dlm satU bahasa je. yg anaknye pUn degil, campUr adUk. takley disalahkan, sememangnye saya nie kepala batU. Head gOt stOne lah kan.

kekadangkan kalau saya nie dgr RIA ataU ERA, ade pendengar sUka nah bUAt dedikasi dlm bahasa Owang pUtih. tU kan RadiO Mlayu, tak paham kah? cheett. yg rancangan Tv nye pUn sama. ape lah dey.. Channel Suria lah bUkan TCS 5. tOlOnglah sikit. makCik2 dan pakCik2 yg jaUh lebih tUa daripada kita nie ade yg tak paham bahasa Inggeris. bertimbang rasa lah sikit kalaU ye pUn.
saya nie bUkan ape. cUma pikiran jek. saya pUn ape kUrangnye kan. nak berbahasa kena ikUt angin tapi bertempat.

masa di bangkU sekOlah rendah dan menengah dUlU, bahasa Inggeris saya hanCur berderai. stakat mampU C6 ataU C5 je. terUk kan tU. maklUmlah ari2 baCa bUkU Mlayu. Markah utk bahasa MlayU lebih2 lagik karangan, tak pernah kUrang dari jangkaan. entah eh, kalaU dah darah Mlayu, MlayU gak lah saya.

Tapi saya kagUm dengan kawan baik saya RISA. Bahasa Mlayunya sUnggUh mendalam. Sampai saya pUn tak paham. ade tOkOh menjadik seOrang penUlis cerpen ataU pUisi. itUlah kelebihannya.

lebih baik saya pendekkan cerita sebelUm ia melarUt. tak senOnOh benar blOg dlm bahasa Mlayu. saya rasa amat kekOk. sampai kita bertemU lagik.. tata titi tUtU.

:: ffy 09:45pm ::

dis yr hari raya wOnt be sO grand fOr me. it'll be simple as this yr will be the last yr im celebrating it at dis plC. am bz wif preparatiOn fOr the new hs & gOtta save Up bucks fOr lOads Of stUff. and fOr emergenCy Use tOo. Usually 4 pairs Of bajU kUrUng every yr bUt dis yr i make it a histOry. dOwngrade tO 1, nOt Counting the 1 my aUnt gave me. im in lOve wif pastel cOlOurs nOw tt the cOlOur tOne Of my new bajU kUrUng is lavender wif a mix Of grey. silky One tt is bargained frOm $48 tO $44. nOthing mUch tO blOg as im feeling siCk. cOugh and gastriC are nOt getting any better. im hOoked tO CadbUry's hOt cOcOa and tt is what i Only have fOr my daily meals fOr the past few days. i'll get skinnier day by day.

:: ffy 06:10pm ::

Saturday, November 08, 2003

>From: "Effendy Karim"
>To: "Edge"
>Subject: [PPPIO] Murtad - hati2 dengan laman web ini.
>Date: Fri, 7 Nov 2003 10:43:26 +0800
>
> Wallahualam bisawab...
> >
> > Tak tahu pulak tentang kebenaran website ni... sampai mendabik dada
bila
> > dah murtad...
> > check it out:

Friday, November 07, 2003

i'll be Outs 2mrw with mUm tO Ginza Plaza, the cOntractOr's Office. den head tO Geylang with Dee. i did a template fOr my Bf's sis, bUt she's nOt Using it. sO i gave my wk tO RISA

its 'Duckie in cOnversatiOn'.
happened tO be in Ms dUckies tagbOard when we strUck dis cOnversatiOn.

NOTE: read frOm bOttOm tO tOp.

iSzZie: tak bis bis ngan sesjaek dierr..chett.. dah lah kiter nak pi bikin template. boring ah dOk Umah ehh
phreak: hihi i noe wot u mean duCkiee... sesaje je saya..saya sesaje je
phreak: hep!notty phreaky..kacau n spot org je..cium kang!
iSzZie: i mean nxt tyme be mOre clear..lermak..asyik miss oUt je werds
phreak: nxt be? apa kebenda tu?baby saya tau lar hihi
iSzZie: lerrr.. nxt be mOre clear lahh deyyy
phreak: im talkin bout maself lar posa ... awak pon ..perasan! hihi aCah jee
phreak: waterbed is phreaking kinky ..i want! hihih ... puasa oi puasa...
iSzZie: katil is nOt meant fOr dUckie..Only lOngkang. gOt water wat. Or u 1 water bed
phreak: oii campak kat katil lar ..kat longkang tak best
iSzZie: alamk nie dUckie..campak kang kat lOngkang..
prettymissperfect: sugasuga prettymissperfect
phreak: sesjae? arrr nie bhs apa plak?
iSzZie: sesjae ehh sampiOng kang
phreak: takde citer ..cuma sesaja je ..je sesaje..
phreak: NO!..i dun wan NO linkage! NO! *eksen marah*
iSzZie: nie dah mCm chatrm..Uhh dUckie takde ekOr ehh.. den me 2 nO hap ekOr lahh
phreak: tu bhs duckiee educated ..takde ekor ...
iSzZie: ape bhs seyy tUuu? bhs dUckie tak camtU pe
phreak: da faham ..saya bodoh kejapz je ... hihi
iSzZie: abey kata tak paham tadie
phreak: apa sowie sowie ..blueii dueyy jueyy suweyy
iSzZie: uhh Ok Ok.. hhahaha sOwie ahh
phreak: tadi dia jugak yg kata..nak cut n paste then taruk pat blog ..aku cepuk kang
iSzZie: tarUk pee??
phreak: baiklah tuan puan..
phreak: ehh taruklahh ...kan duckie in discussion hehe
iSzZie: pUan? ape pUan pUan? tUAn ahh hahaha
phreak: ar? tak faham ..hehe saya bodoh puann
iSzZie: mCm nak cUt n paste je tarUk pat blOggy nie tags..haha. abey tak kUar pUn lagU
phreakyduckiee: arr saya mmg sioww ..awak dari dulu lagu saya sumer tokleh dengar ..beh nak camne..nak saya nyanyikan?
iSzZie: sepak? terajang kang...
phreakyduckiee: jgn manyak complain..sepak kang!
iSzZie: gilerrrr...Org tak ley dgr camne nak dgr.. siOw
phreakyduckiee: jgn manyak complain..sepak kang!
phreakyduckiee: lerrr dngrlah ..siapa tak kasi dngar... "so high...so high...u got me lifted me ..."
iSzZie: sUsahnye takley refresh..lecey ah nie tagbOard

:: ffy 05:00pm ::

blardy stOmaCh cramp. sO painfUl tt i cOuldnt sleep dis mOrning. wOke up at 12pm, thanks tO mUm. if nOt, my sleep wOuld have dragged till late afternOon. i need tO prepare the lab manUal fOr Pre-SIP seminar befOre 11th & have tO meet Up with my ST (Supervising Teacher) at CHIJ On the 10th. hOliday seasOn, bUt still need tO travel tO sChoOl.

*sigh*. matters Of the heart is invading me. im nOt sO prOfessiOnal tO handle it. never ending. time fOr me tO gO & call up my tUitiOn agenCy. need assignments tO keep my bUcks rOlling intO my pOckets.

:: ffy 02:15pm ::

Thursday, November 06, 2003

i was hm very mUch early than Other days, 5+. disCovered tt the kitChen was smOking with mUm's cOOking. jUst simple dishes fOr break fast tO fill Our empty stOmaChs. i wasnt fasting, hit the red spOt On my mOnthly calendar. bUt i didnt get tO eat till 8+ in de evening. tOday's Outing was indeed shOrt bUt i did have a great day.

the new watCh was kindda lOose, sO have tO adjUst the strap. wOnder wats de plan fOr tOmOrrOw? nO cOmpany, nOwhere tO gO, means nO leaving hOme den. shall jUst rOt fOr hOw lOng, i dUnnO. im in nO mOOd & pOsitiOn tO blOg fOr nOw. need tO sOrt Out my thinkings. im sO intO U.

:: ffy 10:50pm ::

is it trUe tt Our Older Malay generatiOn believe watChes, handkerChief, perfUmes, rings are nOt advisable tO be given as gifts tO the Opp sex? i have this ex-cOlleagUe whOm i Used tO wk with her after my O's, tOld me tt these gifts UsUally lead tO break Ups?? i dUnnO wats de verdiCt. i gOtta rUsh.. need tO shOp fOr lOads Of stUffs. im rUnning late.

:: ffy 01:00pm ::

jUst cOmpleted designing a layOut fOr a clOse friend Of mine, RISA whOm ive knOwn sinCe i was in P1. sO minUs, add, times, divide.. tt will be abt 12yrs. we are indeed VERY close bUt time dOes nOt permit Us tO meet Up with eaCh Other. we have Our Own life nOw. Other than the bOth Of us, there's 3 Other gfs whOm are still in cOntact till nOw. tOgether, the 5 Of us makes up DaBella. its amazing tt the friendship still stand strOng thOugh we encOuntered Ups & dOwns tt cOuld never be avOided.reminisCing the childhOod tt i had since i was a kid jUst bring baCk the Old memOries whiCh cOuld either make me smile Or frOwn.

im a grOwn Up now and the past remains histOry,the present is reality and the fUtUre is my destiny..a prinCiple of my life bUt u guys Out there may inteprete it differently. Our thinkings and mindset are nOt alike bUt sOmehOw Or rather there's always a bOund when we think similarly. there gOes the saying 'Great mind thinks alike'. i shall jUst end it here befOre this entry gOes side-traCk.

:: ffy 12:24am ::

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

its jUst de 1st dae Of hOls bUt my bUtt's been itChy and i kept fidgetting jUst like the wriggly wOrm. cant wait tO cease the thOughts Of having tO plan where i shld gO & dO fOr the next 62 days. *sighs*. i've cOme Up with a 'tO dO' list jUst tO keep me OccUpied dUring this hOls. dUnnO if it can wOrk fOr me.

1) start giving tUitiOns baCk. can get extra incOme ryte?
2) bUy material at spOtlite/geylang tO sew my bajU kUrUng, cUshiOn cOvers..bla bla bla. prOdUctive & save cOst frOm bUying ready made.
3) mOre blOghOppings, sO peeps i hOpe u dUn mind.
4) read my blOg entries Ovr & Ovr again.
5) type in mOre entries, tt if i have sOmething tO blOg fOr.
6) re-edit template.
7) gO fOr bike praCtiCals everydae if i can afford the bUcks.
8) watch TV, sleep, pace up & dOwn at hm, on-off PC. sO UnprOdUctive.
9) cOnstant sighings. have tO think what tO dO, where tO gO, with whOm, when, hOw? sO Unhealthy.
10) gO lib bOrrOw lOts & lOts Of Danielle Steel bOoks tO read.
11) messaging & calling Up friends/aCqUaintanCe tO chill Out.
12) unwelcOmed visits tO aUnts' plCes fOR chit chat sessiOns.
13) create a mess in my wardrObe & refOld the clOthes.
14) bake cOOkies if im nOt lazy.
15) clean the whOle hs, whiCh is sO dreading. aniway we're mOving Out sOOn. sO y bOther.
16) Hari raya visits tO many, many hs. sO can get mOre green paCkets. kwa kwa kwa.
17) bOrrOw tOnnes Of VCDs & have a mOvie marathOn at hm.
18) retUrn tO sChOOl if needed tO.
19) jOb hUntings. fOr the sake Of it.
and lastly,
20) fOrce myself tO stUdy whiCh i really lOathe jUst in case i have tO sit fOr sUpp paper.

wOahh, its raining cats & dOgs. i likeeeeee. a perfeCt time fOr a shOrt nap.

:: ffy 04:10pm ::

im still up & have not been sleeping since ystdae mOrning when i tOok my last paper. it sUcked tO the cOre. i guess i may have to take the supp paper. i dont wish to as it falls on Hari Raya but tt depends on the results i'll get. finally completed the new skin for Mr Bloggy. jUst luve the pastel colours, pleasant to the eyes thOugh.

had a splendid dae after sChOOl, it was my last paper bUt i think i knOw what's the OutcOme gOnna be. am tOo sleepy and heCtic nOw. shall head tO my cOmfy bed. early mOrng peeps.

to be continued.....

:: ffy 04:51 am ::

Monday, November 03, 2003

my nutrition acrOss life span paper was sUch a hOrrid.. wOnders if im a sUrvivOr fOr this.. and 2mrw's principle Of biOchemistry & prinCiple Of nUtritiOn paper gOnna be a killer. ive nOt start stUdying & nvr been a faihfUl fan Of de leCtUres either.. *SHUCKS*

:: ffy 02:40pm ::

Sunday, November 02, 2003

wOnder whO's dis "ms or mr whOever U r" tt distUrbed me while i was revising..

??:hai
me:whOs diz?
me:whO r U?
??fUck lah..hU are U?
me:U r de 1 whO msg me 1st & said hai, sO i shld b asking whO de fUck r U
??:whO de fUck r U?
me:eh y mUst i tel u whO i m..U msged me 1st,mr or ms whOever U r

wtf.. wasted my few 5 cents jUst tO reply dis idiOtiC. tOt it's my friends whO had chnged their nOs. Or wanted tO make a fOol Out of me..the nO. was Unfamiliar thOugh. intended tO ring Up dis asshOle bUt dUn wanna waste my bills jUst tO ask whO's the sender.

Damn.. my exam starts 2mrw till tUes.
im dOomed. wOnder hOw well i can fare?
wish myself gd lUck den..
& i lOve dis sOng, sO intO u..

Listening to: Pintaku Yg Terakhir - Dayang Nurfaizah

he incUred my wrath again ystdae, whiCh infUriated me even mOre. fOr gdness sake, its de fasting mth bUt he still tested my patienCe. i was really fUming in mad & felt like thrOwing my hp against the wall. there's never a time when what he say and dO are wrOng. it has always been me, me & me.. fOr what he had dOne, it had caUsed a deep impaCt On me, mentally & physically. its the fasting mth & the festive seasOn is jUst rOund the cOrner. he's gOing NS sOon bUt things have nOt been better. ive dOne everything i cOuld bUt the blame was all pUshed tO me. hOw Unfair can it be. it was like im the caUse Of the whOle dispUte when it wasnt. the mOment he Opened his mOuth wO thinking, hUrting wOrds are hUrled. in the end,the 1 whO's feeling sO mUch hUrt is me..

i almOst wanted nOt 2 gO hm bUt ive prOmised mUm tO break fast with her. thOught Of meeting sOme friends after break fast bUt nOne was free & wanted tO gO 2 de plC tt i had in mind. eventUally, i slept the whOle dispUte Off till i wOke Up fOr sahUr. cant even be bOthered tO think abt it. pillar Of strength was right, i was immUned tO it. what he did & said, its been part Of my daily life..

:: ffy 11:15am ::