you stole my heart

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

did i tell u how much i lurveeee my kitchen and tt it seldom smoked? de only time it emits smoke is when i unleash my culinary skills. i can even roll and sleep on de kitchen floor. but tts too drastic lah. who wld do such hindustan moves? wanna guess wats my speciality?? going once, twice.... thrice. give up? spaghetti spaghetti spaghetti. and i know i owe someone tt. even mum and my cuzz gave de thumbs up. but they insist and persist tt they should have a taste of de italian noodles again after for sooo long.. too lazy shop for the ingredients lah. *padahal kedai runcit depan blk je*. haha. even nowadays am too plain lazy to prepare lunch box to sch. cos i sleep too much and wake up just on time for sch. yess, my life revolves ard slping. who doesnt.

and its great being on mc today with the darl.. da-ffy "duck".
window shopped, gossipped, ate, drank, laughed.. and she bought her mp3 player finally.
wen's my turn? any sponsor for my bdae?
:: ffy 07::00pm ::

finale.. de side view

and not enough, he asked to fry dis as well

de daddy monster had become de "jemputburglar" and left us these

front view..

de little brother who is soooo extra

de 'chef' at wk

before..

the specimen..tt comes with de price

Saturday, July 24, 2004

alrite, de full update after being MIA.
term test time table's out. left a wk but have yet to prepare mentally and physically for it. caught up with workload tt nvr seem to end. rushing like mad woman to get them over and done with. HECTIC. once term break begins, shall head for retail therapy and a gd massage. tt will accomodate for the loss. though sch's a rollercoaster ,it's great knowing tt only 3mths was spent per sem. minus off de term test wk, term break, study wk and de 2 mths hols. all in all, half a yr of schooling. and de other half, shaking leg with money rolling in ur pocket. a great deal to be with de MOE. my, my, unless ure ready to serve 5yrs upon graduating with them. hurhurhur.

ulcer's been unkind to me. eating was difficult and endurance was a killer. putting salt onto it wont be a gd idea as well. 2nd attempt on rtt will be in a mth's time, after sitting for de evaluation once. wishing upon de shooting star (as if) tt this will be de 2nd and de last.

the brain's not functioning well due to lack of glucose supply. shall raid de kitchen and turn it upside down. and it seems tt de ppl from de past are returning. 1 after another. this ain't pleasant. for i just loathe de idea.

:: ffy 01:55am ::

Saturday, July 17, 2004

to pillar, if ure reading dis..

i noe its not u who owe me ur living. ur expectations of me i obliged them. but having to doubt one's heart is a sign of dwnfall. jealousy caused de friction. and my mind was nvr filled with whathavei. happy _ _ th to u in advance. mayb i AM de real beast.
i missed the sunrise of de rship.

based on a TRUE story. and she is yours truly

been really tied down with lotsa things esp school. juggling here and there independently and indulging in the tight schedule. 24 hrs a day, yet cldnt spare a minute for herself. skipping meals was nothing unusual. though lunch box was faithfully with her. she had the worst gastric ever on Wednesday and her chest pain was back even wo puffing for 4 days. de doc concluded tt failing to heed his advice, she has to bear de consequences. like mother like daughter, twas the inheritance of the gastric.

and theres assignments after assignments, projects after another and tests after tests. coming to de 5th week of school. left with exactly 2 more wks for the term test. she broke down almost every night having to endure the pressure tt gave her so much impact. was on the verge of giving up the career but having to pay 2.5yrs of bond with MOE is no BIG joke. her pillar was there but she believed in standing on her own feet this time. bottled up her feelings and sealed them with de cap. kept herself and troubles away for fear of being a hassle to her loved ones.

it was also beyond her will when HE and HIM came back from de past. neither did she ask nor wish for it. de sins she made had been buried with the old her but de pillar had made an assumption and caused a lil friction. she finally came up with de decision to make it a pt tt she will not depend on her pillar animore though her life revolves ard it. and the rest is history. as for now, shes too depressed and emotional drained to even serve her readers de full story. till de day she get herself composed, she'll fill up the missing parts.

Monday, July 12, 2004

the soulmate had actually misintepreted the content and shocked me with a morning call on saturday mrng. i was still in dreamland and eventually, i got annoyed by the probing. the call spoiled the whole of saturday. i kicked up a fuss and was in a pissed off mode. it cant be helped knowing the fact tt provoking and probing get on my nerves. tried to compose myself but somehow or rather, anger got de better of me. yet again. *confused*.

i heard thunder and saw de lightning here. praying hard tt it'll rain. at least it'll make my day. on a monday, for sure. :-)
:: ffy 02:50am ::

Saturday, July 10, 2004

ambience creating a romantic mood. orange lighting. lime green backdrop. squarish dining furniture. voila. just the exact sentiment. to have the exact replica of tt in de dream hs. but its Cavana for now.

:: ffy 09:10pm ::

sings *give me one give me one give me one more*

knowing the fact that i woke up with a dried terrible sore throat, i was pretty stubborn to just go ahead with pall mall. and de weather speaks my mood for today. gloomy. don't i just LOVE the rain? where's de smile when it showers? aiyahhh. no time to smile lah when loads of wk are pilling up. smile for me alrite.

the past is back to haunt me. nope. not that i reminisced the both good and bad old days. but it seemed tt de unwanted ppl are back. and wat should i do now? walk a milestone wo turning back? i did tt but they caught up with me. now now, dig me a hole and bury me inside. save me from all dis. i need PEACE.

:: ffy 01:10am ::

Thursday, July 08, 2004

indeed de blog's world has made ~~the world~~ Singapore smaller. and i love her name, nur arfah octavia. kewlness hah. but Suffy's pretty simple too. *grinz*

:: ffy 10:55pm ::

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

~~im beginning to think tt i REALLY screwed up my RTT ystdae.~~ rewind. its not think. it is the REAL fact. i can't believe the fact of knowing the answers, i answered 2 qns wrongly. *smack forehead*. and out of 50 qns, i can only afford to make 5 mistakes. 2 down, 3 more to go. Monday has never been my day. im hoping for a PASS in 2 wks time. pls grant me tt.

:: ffy 02:00am ::

Sunday, July 04, 2004

a simple lie. white lie? how much it can deteriorates one's life. such a simplicity. yet tormenting and full of hatred. anger. the negative feelings invaded and took its toll. but damages had been done. PERIOD. to forgive is to forget. CRAP.

i shld have just gone to Chinablack with the gfs on Friday. blardy shit.
anoder addition to my link. my fellow course mate, EZ

:: ffy 01:10am ::

Thursday, July 01, 2004

35 most jambu bloggers 2004.
courtesy of NAURA. click to enlarge.
this is kewl.